Insomnia /Depression Survival #amilikey
So this picture was taken the day I was able to finally be me again. I had gotten out of visiting my then temporary counselor for psychiatry back in 2018. I suffered my second and last episode with severe depression when I took on the role of caregiver for three people all by myself. It was overwhelming and I didn't know how to cope with it so I reverted back to the awful conditions I once endured in 2014 for the first time. I knew what the symptoms were, but this time it hit me even harder because I felt responsible for my own mother's aliment. I eventually received the treatment I needed at the time and when I finally was able to attend my own doctors appointment on my very own. I knew I was back to being me, and that is why I took that selfie in the bathroom. My birthday was approaching and it felt awesome knowing that my mood was back to normal and all I had to workout was getting off the sleeping meds.
I spoke with my oversees RN from my childhood. She literally has known me since my accident happened in 1993 when we were just two little girls playing in the laundry room area. Several years passed by until we finally reconnected when I was in my early 20s. Ever since we have always kept in touch. So I went straight to the source and asked her to help me get off the sleeping meds because I knew I was back to my normal self and I just needed to get my normal sleep pattern back. She gave me the recipe and it worked just as she instructed me to do so and I will forever love her for that because she believed in me when others around me just wanted me to stay on meds for good.
I advocate for proper sleep because I know first hand how debilitating insomnia is and can progress into depression. I experienced it twice and I learned more about it than ever before. So don't think you are immune to sleep deprivation and take your ass to sleep within reasonable timing. If you don't feel right, there is no shame in seeking counseling and medical attention through psychiatry because the meds are temporary if you exercise the healing process adequately and depending on your condition too. Living with a medical condition that requires psychiatric medicine doesn't diminish your self worth or capabilities. It is better to live a life with some assistance, than to not live at all. I am forever grateful that the Lord healed me completely from those two severe conditions and now that I have survived them, I can talk openly about them to others who may be facing them. Anyways it's my favorite part moment. “You are not a mistake, because God is perfect and He cannot make mistakes.” You are here for a reason and a purpose, so let Jesus show you the way. Thank you for your support and remember to view my YouTube videos using the best hashtag #️⃣ amilikey
Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,
Ana :)
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