Scammers

 Good Evening the 1% of viewers to this blog!!! I know, that I know better than what I allowed to happen to me about over a month ago. I love using social media as a platform to share my ups and downs in life. To continuously allow the world into my life in hopes that they might receive some encouragement and motivation in the midst of so much chaos. 

As the followers know, I had been building and working on my Instagram page for over three years and was almost at 500 followers, which yes in the grand scope of things it is not a big deal. For me it did mean a lot of hard work and more importantly great memories that were all journaled through my page. One Saturday morning I received a message from an old high school friend and I knew her very well. She asked if I wanted to enter or receive some giveaway money her company was giving out. At first it seemed to good to be true, but I also knew she is a real plus size model so I kept thinking maybe it could be. I should have stuck to my gut feeling and not have been money hungry or whatever you want to call it. I allowed these fools to persuade me into changing my personal assigned email on my Instagram account and there within seconds my account was gone from under me. 

I was so shocked and amazed how quickly everything escalated and I contacted my friend via Facebook just to learn it really was true-- she too had fallen victim to the same scammers and had taken over her account just three days prior to taking mine too. I filled multiple forms on Instagram help center and reported them with other people's account but so far nobody has reached out to help me recover my account. They even created a fake ID stating that I work for this company that is bitcoin giveaway and I exposed them via Twitter and created a new Instagram account to attempt to expose them that way too. Instagram doesn't care about a small page that had less than 500 followers and I believe that is just unfair to ignore the problems of people like myself who honestly made a huge mistake. 

I didn't want to start over at first because I was just so upset about the whole matter. Later on, I realized my page was always much more than just another page to gain followers and rack up profit gains $$$. I enjoyed my page because it allowed me to share my story and gave me a purpose to always remind myself someone else needs to hear what I have to say. I am not the only one who has fallen on hard times and has experienced traumatic events; however, everyone's story is unique and it must be told. I also keep in touch with my family who are so far away from me. I blog, post, twit, share and like because it makes me happy and I'd like to believe it can help at least one person feeling blue on any given day. 

I pray these individuals realize that scamming people out of accounts to attempt to steal other people's money is not a great lifestyle to endure. In one way or another, EVERYONE PAYS for their wrong doings and it's not just in eternity. Scammers -- you have more skills to be put to good use and your lives matter beyond self-gain. I hope the FBI and whoever monitors online criminal activity speedup their arrest so less people will be targeted by these cold-hearted scammers. 

On a much brighter note, I am happy to notify that for the very first time in my life I was able to use my hard earned PTO and it felt great. I almost felt like a rich person making money without actually working. Major Lol. It literally was only five hours but it still felt great and I am looking forward to one day having a whole week of PTO and actually going on a real vacation. 

I hope this very last week of 2021 helps you make the right decisions for 2022. This year didn't start off as great as I would have hoped but surely as the months passed by it definitely got a lot better for me. So take courage and join me in 2022 for more blogs (hopefully better consistency) and stories that will inspire you and give you motivation to go on to success. 

Love, Xoxoxoxoxo - Ana :)

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Show Love

 HEY EVERYBODY LONG TIME NO SEE !!!!!

I hope everyone out there is having a blessed day and currently a great weekend too. I know I keep trying to keep up my consistency with these blogs, but I am pretty preoccupied in real life - so bare with me ya'll. I enjoy sharing my good news as well as my struggles because that is the transparency I like to keep between me and the audience I have built over these past few years. I admit sometimes I share maybe a little too much, but I can't help it sometimes to share and express how I feel about something. 

    Today I want to briefly touch up on the principle of showing love to one another. Is it easy to love someone who loves you back ? Yes. Is it easy to love someone you just really like as a person ? Yes. Is it easy to love someone who has done you dirty over and over again ? No, it sure is not at all!!!!!!!!

The hardest thing in life is to be able to turn the other cheek and receive the bash. We are prone to respond in retaliation regardless of the circumstance because it is human nature. However, when we let God take control of our lives and our emotions we learn quickly that a loving-kind word turns wrath down from an evil heart. God loved us when we didn't even know Him because that is TRUE LOVE. The ability to love unconditionally and love those who in our own judgement are not worthy of it is the right choice always. We have to remember it is not up to us to change someone's behavior with our words, but we can only show them love so they may have a reason to believe there is a different kind of love only found in Christ Jesus. 

    Showing love is not about throwing money at the people in need, but if someone has a need and you are able to supply it then do it with grace in your heart. We can show God's love in so many ways it can be put in a manual of over 100 categories. I constantly remind myself that when I obey men's law I am also showing love to God by accepting that those people are in power for a reason and to submit to a law so long as it does not contract God's word is okay. I have to remind myself that those in power are deserving of respect just like anyone else but I also submit myself to their counsel as part of my obedience to the Lord in that I do everything on to Him. 

    My previous employers have not been the easiest to deal with because of their lack of professionalism and inadequate administration. They definitely were placed without the right judgment of qualifications but merely personal likes which is unprofessional. I honestly did my best to accept their order while still staying true to being a good employee. I pray they all realize it is not about bossing people around and belittling them, but about the service they provide the customers they serve. At this particular time and date I can't show my years of experience in one sector alone; nonetheless, I know I have great leadership skills that would benefit any company. My view is not about the greatest amount of profit I can generate to the company; rather the quality of service customers can agree to receiving is the best. I care about the people and I know if greater quality service is provided the people on their own will come in large numbers so expansion is relying on quality of service. 

    I show love at my job each and every day to the best of my ability. I sometimes have to bite my tongue to the actions of some, but regardless I am trying to show love to all each and every day. Do I always get it right ? I definitely do not unfortunately, but God's grace is sufficient to keep me pushing forward. I want to show love in every way I can and I know love changes things and gives people the hope and inspiration to never give up in life. 

Reset your mind to show love in every way you can and I promise your life will always have meaning. Now, where can you start ? Begin by asking God to pour into your spirit His love so that you have the right source to give from. Next, love yourself just as you are right now with all of your imperfections and make sure you don't leave yourself in last place. Family and friends will always be there for you to show them love, but begin by showing yourself some love from you to you too !!! 

As always I hope this short blog helps and motivates someone to go forth and make the right changes to a better life. You are not a mistake because your mom's one night stand or broken condom. Your parents may have not planned for your arrival, but it was in God's plan all along. So give him a real chance to enter your life and start using you for His Glory. 

Xoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :) 

Back to School ... 101

 Greetings favorite bloggers of mine... I would like to take a few moments to elaborate on my point of view of grade school. We are at that season where all our children are restarting the academic school year. Actually it's been a couple of weeks in already, I wanted to reflect on my own personal experience versus the actual school system now in progress. 

    I overall did fairly well academically speaking with grades and my actual learning; however, socially from peer to peer it was a hidden struggle to feel like I was accepted and I had an equal part in our student body. Let me dive in into specific details: 

    1. I never felt comfortable with any one group of peers 

    2. Every group of peers treated me like I was the outcast of the group (they never really included me in the group conversation nor did they care to ask for my opinion on the subject at hand)

    3. My junior year I always had lunch with 3 other girls who were 2 latinas 1 black; one day 2 of them were absent from school and the one who had come that day specifically told me in the bathroom before lunch don't be looking for me at lunch I will be in the library instead... in that moment I was like wow so you're just gonna leave me by myself & she said "all you do is follow us around" that was so hurtful & I never felt more rejected & alone 

4. Everyone would always hangout after school hours and during the weekend, but was I ever courteously invited ? No, I was like well this is so awkward and uncomfortable always being left out of these group outings & then hearing everything that happened. 

I honestly hated the social aspect of being in school. Every time the teacher would instruct let's pick a partner to do this activity-- my heart would sink to my stomach because I already knew it would be a struggle to be selected by anyone. Whenever the teacher would ask a question in class I would beg God not to be called on because I either didn't know the answer or I just didn't want the spotlight to be on me. I was never confident to participate in class discussions or was so afraid of defending my beliefs because of the fear of how my classmates would react-- so I was an expert at staying to myself and keeping my mouth shut. 

    My teachers would sometimes highlight my A grades in front of the class and everyone would be like she actually has an A in class even though she never participates. I felt even worse because you didn't have to be a mind-reader to know exactly what they were thinking of me with those stares and glares. 

    Despite all those awful moments of being the last one to be chosen or acknowledged everyday in school, I truly would not have opted out of physically being in school. Today students have a much broader opportunity to study remotely and still gain a meaningful education. Yet, I still firmly believe the peer interaction in person creates the stamina character we need in life to face real-world problems. Online education is awesome for extreme limited cases like cancer patients or people with physical limitations, but going to school on a daily basis gives you lessons the virtual schooling will never allow you to acquire. 

    I would like to encourage every parent to strive to allow your child to be an in-school student and also encourage students to endure the peer pressure despite the emotional toll it takes, because later on in life you will be thankful you grew from those days. To be able to transfer those skills as a student to an employee are so crucial and believe me it is best to learn those social skills from a young age. So no one takes advantage of your naïve character or lack of discernment to people's malice intentions/manipulations.  

    Just a few tips for academic success every student can benefit from:
1. Do your best not to leave assignments for the last minute; procrastination is not your only option
2. Do not be embarrassed to ask questions in class or to ask another student or the teacher after class
3. Balance doing homework with at least 1 fun activity so you can relax and destress (Ex: one movie, one dinning take out, anything you enjoy doing EXCEPT DRUGS/ALCOHOL/SEX )
4. Understand that you are more than a GPA and academic success is not only being in the top 10% of your class, but how well you adapt to change and ability to learn & then perform 
5. College is genuinely not your ONLY OPTION EITHER ; becoming a manager or supervisor in any industry is still a respectable job or starting your own personal business even if it's just you charging for services like tutoring or selling your artwork 
6. Be open to participate in extra curricular activities at least once in a while, because you never know what new opportunities may arise or new hobbies you may acquire 
I hope this blog helps the student body and you learn from my mistakes. Remember your purpose exists and you should never give up on having a bright future. Thank you for your time and as always remember to view my videos on YouTube and come follow me on Instagram or Twitter. 
Love, 

Ana :) 

    

Abolish this ...

     Good afternoon bloggers all across America and the great planet earth - no aliens because they're not real- Major Lol. Alright, let me dive-in into this promised topic of discussion I did mention in my last video on my YouTube channel. Disclosure - there is a YouTube channel with great video content and I STRONGLY suggestion viewing them!!! I am all about creativity and I believe with the limited resources available to me now I have done fairly well. 

    Sandra Bullock is a great actress, one of the favorite lines in the movie Miss Congeniality, "World Peace" as she was trying to give her speech part of the contest in the pageant. Everyone knows this world is messed up to the tee; lacking so many reforms and serious changes. I personally would love to contribute to that change by abolishing things that do not benefit the majority. One of the many things I'd like to get my hands on is jury duty. You read it correctly, JURY DUTY is absolutely the most idiotic idea established by government among others. 

    Let me break it down for you so that there is no wavering understanding of what it represents and why it doesn't serve the people. 

    "Jury duty is your duty as an American to serve as a juror during a court proceeding. When you serve on a jury, you're ensuring the defendant's Sixth Amendment right to a speedy trial and an impartial jury." (07.07.21, https://www.thebalancecareers.com/what-is-jury-duty-1917981)

Here we have extrapolated the definition of the basic concept of jury duty; now let's go beyond the definition by discussing the real life implications of partaking in this matter. The selection process is absolutely inconvenient and not thoroughly regulated. For example, requesting someone with mental disabilities to jury duty is an error and it goes to show they do not do a comprehensive preliminary selection. Okay, so perhaps a few errors in summoning people to serve as a juror occur, no big deal right? No, it may be a human-mistake, but let's consider that it takes time to submit these requests. Those people in charge of selecting jurors could have been working on real civic cases that demand attention and resources. 

    Once the jury has been selected, these people are responsible for giving a guilty verdict or not about a case that they are not qualified to oversee. The basic requirements to be a juror are simple: be 18 years old, a citizen, a resident of the state and county with a valid ID. Out of those basic requirement does it ever mention being a professional of the topic which the court case is based on? No! So, ordinary common citizens are suppose to be analyzing facts about a crime that they have no experience in and make a decision. How is that not absolutely WRONG!! People are being put before the court to receive a true verdict of their possible innocence, and it shouldn't be up to unqualified people to decide if they are guilty or not. How could I be able to measure the facts presented before me when I do not hold expertise in that specific area? I cannot because in order to have a valid opinion on a subject you have to be well-versed in that subject. No referee in any professional league sport is placed as a referee without having absolute knowledge on all the rules and regulations that sport must adhere by. Yet, here we are placing people at random to sit in on a case and just look at the facts. 

    If there is going to be a jury: it should be made up of only professional jurors capable of really taking into consideration every fact presented before them. For instance, in a murder trial: there should be retired cops, investigators, forensic analyst, psychologists, psychiatrist, sociologists, even ex-convicted murderers. It is these specific group of people who actually have something to offer at a professional level to have the right to say those facts absolutely convict the person of the crime based on our experience. A person who committed the crime before will know a lot more about the accused person on trial than a mailman or a teacher. Everyone deserves to be judged with accuracy and the jury cannot be people who are not qualified. 

    The best way to go about convicting people of the crimes they are accused of would be to have the correct jury group of lawyers and professionals on the subject. These people are prosecuted by the state with assigned lawyers and the people who can afford to sponsor their own lawyers. It is professional lawyers who always present the facts of the case to the judge and the jury. So, it makes perfect sense to allow the jury to be made up of lawyers who can not only understand the facts but genuinely analyze them to see if it is a lawyer tactic or a real evidence. A mixture of lawyers and professionals would be the correct selection for a jury. 

    I have never personally been selected for jury duty to this date, but when and if the time arises I will gladly let them know I am not supporting this concept and yes I am biased to the case automatically. Also, I will be working full-time to be wasting time in something I do not believe in is being executed correctly. I really hope there is an internal change in the judicial system where the juror is not at random, but it is overseen by qualified people alone. 

    As always thanks for taking a few minutes to read this humble blog. I write not for fame or monetary compensation, but as an outlet of my thoughts/ideas/experiences that will enable someone to make better choices than I have. I am all about motivation and inspiration; it might sound cliché because so many before me have said it - I go beyond saying it but also meaning it as I have lived it. Full disclosure - many do not know I do re-read my blogs from time to time and although the stats aren't high in volume: it really does encourage me and reminds me why I do keep going through thick and thin. So, I have spoken enough for today, but remember you are not a mistake, you have a purpose, and the hardest one to accept (even I sometimes have trouble) you are good enough [for someone or something - relationship or career]. God loves you so don't disregard Him and see what He can do for you when you give Him a place in your life. 

Love xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,

- Ana :) 

       

A new method

     Hey bloggers !!! Oh wait it's just me posting for an audience that is never really there yeahy. Anyways, the popularity of this blog is never gonna lead to profit and that is okay. Yes, I did say "gonna" instead of "going to" -- proper grammar is annoying sometimes-- so excuse me for not following the grammatical rules all the time. I prefer honest verbal free verse writing instead. 

    My writing will never be supercalifragilisticexpialidocious with exuberant verbiage and literary devices like using similes or metaphors. I write to share content that pertains to my life experiences or my own point of view. Writers should be true to their own identity, and portraying high level of scholarly writing without actually speaking that way in your dialogue in person is just a lie. Alright, let me get to today's main topic of blogging. 

    Women are all talkative by nature and that is just a fun fact of the female species. I won't deny I have cut off a few people in my dialogues as we are in conversation; my intention was never to be rude I just couldn't help getting my thought process out in the open before it faded. So, I have done some reflection on my past experiences and I have drawn one conclusion which I have incorporated as my new method. Before I say what it is and keep your curiosity for a few more seconds, let me also say that executing it is absolutely the most difficult thing I have had to learn to do. 

    Drum roll please ... the new method is no other than to SHUT UP -- that simple -- in all seriousness. I have always known the common phrase, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all" ; however, it goes further than just keeping negative opinions to yourself. A lot of the times it is best to keep your feelings and opinions about something or someone to yourself without sharing it at all. 

    Let me elaborate on the specific scenarios I am referring to:

    > When you are (for whatever reason) speaking to a person with obvious personal issues such as addictions, anger, hate, or low self-esteem etc. 

> When you are at work, volunteering, in public at the grocery store 

> Meeting new people through established peers 

Each time you find yourself in these particular scenarios is when you should be alert of everything that you say before you say it. I know, I know it should be common sense, but as a woman who loves to talk nonstop it sometimes just slips out or I am so into the interaction I am not mindful of the scenarios. Therefore, I have had to really tell myself to just Shut Up over and over again in my mind to keep myself from creating more conflict or problems with people who can't handle the truth, are plain immature, or are in the wrong state of mind.  

    I am not saying I am perfect and I don't fit into one of those categories for someone else; I am merely stating that if we (including myself) are more mindful of what we say when certain people are around we can save ourselves a lot of headaches and drama in general. In the past, I have shared how I really felt about the situation or the person's lifestyle, and just as a mentioned they were not equipped to receive it. Instead of having an open mind and realizing there was truth in my statement, they just lashed out at me for "criticizing" them. They looked at me like I was just being judgmental, but the reality was I was only attempting to bring light into their distress. 

    For example, I was so frustrated with the double-load of work being expected out of me at a previous job that one day without being careful I shared my feelings about it. One other personnel then used that against me and told on me with upper management. I had to learn the hard way that no matter how injustice or frustrating the work situation becomes -- you are never to share how you really are feeling EVER. Of course there is a right way of approaching any abuse in the work environment, but it does not involve our personal feeling in regards to the situation. 

    On that note, my best advice which is also again a no brainer -- never ever become friends with coworkers -- it never ends well (TRUST ME). It becomes a distraction at work and the line always ends up being broken where it stops being a professional environment and there is just too much leniency between each other. All we have to do is be courteous to all our fellow coworkers, but never socialize with them outside of work. One must not be friends with everyone or anyone. I encourage everyone to respect one another despite our differences, but to abide by this level of respect does not imply we have to be friends. 

    "Keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer" is just an awful cliché statement that people like to adhere by and it is absolutely wrong. No one should be pretending to be friends with someone you know dislikes you and has a strong desire to hurt you. A friendship is built on the honesty of liking that person's personality, and the enjoyment of interacting with them. So keeping your so called enemies closer is just bringing you and exposing you to so much more problems. If you know they are not good for you then just stay away and pray for them instead. 

    Back to the main point, it is best to avoid sharing too much and better not to say anything at all when people are pushing your buttons. I am so used to having a comeback response for every attack or ill comment, but it leads to nothing and just prolongs the agitator from being even more aggravating. You really do have to be the bigger person without saying that you are being the bigger person by being quiet. 

    Alright, there is not much more that I could add to this topic of discussion. I hope my own experiences with not keeping it to myself help you not make the same mistake. Become more reserved in your speech and know that people may say one thing in person but really have other intentions. Understand that certain people are not ready to hear what you have to say even if it is your own good intentions to help them.

    Till next time, remember I do not have it all together, but I share with caution to encourage someone else in need of it. To uplift is always my main goal and to make you realize there is a lot heartache in this life, but always opportunity to do better and be better. God is patient and His unconditional love never runs out so don't give up. 

- Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Love - Ana ") 

 

Fitness 101 for me

 

    Greetings bloggers!!!! I am here again, so come spare me a few minutes of your time and let's get going. To the new readers (which hopefully there are new comers) I just want to inform you I am an open-book as much as possible about my life. I do my best to keep people's identity private and only share that which is directly my experience. 

    Growing up in my childhood, I have always been an active person. I remember being so excited about recess time every day in school; playing on the playground nonstop with my classmates. The monkey bars were truly my favorite to the point that I developed a bacterial infection on my left hand and was out of school for a whole week -- recovering with daily treatment. Even with my medical restrictions to be out of the sun and be careful not to fall or scrape my legs: I still kept my playful time with the rest of the kids until they forced me to take a break. 

    I also admired the cheerleading, figure-skating, and any sport that kids were allowed to play in school. In my mind, I always wanted to be a part of the school's team, but the reality of the lack of resources always kept me away. At the age of eleven I discovered my favorite sport -- basketball -- and since then I always wanted to shoot hoops in school and in my own personal time as well. I admit after all these years I still can't dunk or dribble the ball in between my legs. 

    Unfortunately, with my love of good food and college stress I never lost the extra few pounds I've always needed to loose. I began walking more vigorously right after high school as my primary means of transportation. It helped me not gain any more weight, but it never really helped me get in better shape. I had a desire to join a gym and it didn't happen until last year. Men always admire women who have a six pack or have flat abdomen -- I knew I wanted to look that fit too. 

    The real catalysts for my fitness began at my local church. We have this awesome fitness instructor who began giving us some free workout classes, and I was really excited to see the progress. Unfortunately, with COVID-19 everything got derailed and we no longer came as a group to exercise. I then was able to take maybe 3 or 4 more classes as my budget could afford. He motivated me to start running and I was so impressed with the progress I was making each time improving on my distance and times. During full lockdown quarantine, I also challenged myself to do a 45 minute workout on my own and later on found a great YouTube workout that I also did several times. 

    The weight loss journey is literally the hardest thing anyone can go through as a person. It takes so much dedication and will-power to push through especially on the days you are sore. The most recent workout I came across is the 500 abs challenge: it is a set of 4 or 5 different ab routines and you just go through them each until the full cycle is complete nonstop. I thought it was just too much for me to handle; however, it really takes just the initiative to begin something new. I took about 40 minutes to complete the cycle the first time and took approximately 15 to 30 seconds in between each set. I tried three different variations of the 500 abs challenge and then created a version I liked best out of all the routines available. In full disclosure, I do wear a jacket/hoodie to ensure I break in sweat because the workout itself goes by quickly. 

    So there you have it, summed up with my experience in fitness. I do miss my gym membership, but I know I can still be fit on my own as long as I am consistent. Exercise equipment is helpful in maintaining movement -- yet it is the self-will that ensures real progress. Yes, it is scientifically true that having sex is considered a type of exercise because calories are being burnt. DISCLAIMER: You should ONLY engage in this activity if you are RIGHTFULLY LEGALLY MARRIED!!!!!! Otherwise you are only exposing yourself to emotional pain and it is NEVER worth the few calories burnt. Best recommendation for exercise is something you can perform with no equipment and outdoors with proper fitness clothing such as walking, jogging, and running.    

    One last inside personal experience, I did enjoy the eye candies while I ran by the Riverwalk because they were shirtless (only men should get away with it) chiseled abs with overall good shape bodies. Major Lol. Well that is all I have to share about my fitness endeavors. Remember it is part of your personal responsibility to take care of yourself physically by ensuring you are healthy. So be kind to yourself and loose that excess weight one sweat drop at a time before illness strikes back. God created the perfect human body to endure so much, but also it is our duty to maintain it and not abuse it. 

Love, 

Xoxoxoxoxxoxoxo,

Ana :) 

P.s. if you want to view me in the gym in action just click here

  

Viral Outlook

 

    Good evening beloved bloggers!!! I am here -- finally after again in my usual slum of non-dedication to this blog site. I have to own it: I used to think if only I had internet at home I'd blog daily or weekly. It has been a year now since I reinstated my home service and as you can see -- that commitment is non-existent. The irony of wanting to blog so badly when I didn't have access to it fully versus having it and not doing it. Anyways, it's just an observation I had to put out there because it just popped into my brain as I started blogging. 

    I've had five personal laptops/desktop since I graduated high school, and I have to say I do miss the big screen and wireless keyboard. Another non-relevant side note I shared just because I like to get personal. Now to my topic of the night, I wanted to shed my POV on this COVID-19 pandemic we have been going through since last year. Everyone's experience is different and that is what makes our lives worth living. In my particular case, after being reluctant to resign from my then employment because I didn't want or was convenient for me to work from home -- I too abhorred this virus. 

    We can all agree that this virus has made our lives a lot more uncomfortable than we wanted and it made us realize we did not have it altogether. In the beginning, I never thought wearing a mask would actually become the norm for all public gatherings; these masks are now a new item on the grocery lists, because the reusable ones aren't long term use friendly. On the hot days of summer and fall, wearing a mask at work just was brutal even if it was outdoors. The mornings or times I actually forgot my mask I had to pay up the gas station fee which was ridiculously pricey for just one mask alone. 

    During these early days, I also thought well given the fact that I am uninsured there's no way I'll ever be able to afford the vaccine. Obviously, I wasn't paying attention to the news when they discussed the roll-out of the vaccine. Fast-forward to today -- I can finally say with confidence -- I am one shot away from my full vaccination. People are hesitant to get the vaccine and I understand their concerns, but if you are able to get it done than I say go for it. I am grateful that this vaccine is free of charge and they have made it accessible to all communities with multiple sites opened. 

    Honestly, I never thought I'd be vaccinated so quickly and above all I am merely assisting in our efforts to finally recover from this pandemic in the smallest of ways -- by being vaccinated. I want to do so much more -- I do -- and make a bigger change in society, unfortunately for now this is my way of contributing. If it was up to me I'd be the one administering more shots or being the one to help with distribution or just the actual medical care of those infected. I'm not an irresponsible person, so I know I am not medically qualified to do most of these medical care treatments, but I encourage those who are licensed and know how to medically help to do so. 

    I miss seeing people's smiles and I miss people seeing my smile. Although I never really got to enjoy all the outdoors activities there are to participate in: I still believe we are social people who need one another to socialize without so many restrictions. I am praying we no longer have to wear masks and that the gathering capacities return to normal everywhere. My biggest lesson during this pandemic has been to appreciate my freedom to go outside. The few consecutive days I quarantined felt like an eternity, and it made me appreciate my freedom that much more. Let us pray for those who have given up that freedom by being locked up in jail/prison or who are being held captive against their will. 

    Well, that is all I have for you all right now. Hope these short blogs someday make a difference in the life of somebody. Fame is never the end goal, but if it takes that to reach those in need than I do not objectify against it. One last small personal share: I probably have more journal entries than I do blog posts, but I just love writing period (mainly because as I write I am the sole speaker without interruptions). Again, I thank you for viewing my modest blog and I welcome your feedback!!! 

    If you messed up again, if you can't find the answer, if you are in the valley low: I want to let you know as hard as it is -- things can get better if you do not give up. Open your eyes and heart to God's calling and remember just because you are curious about faith doesn't mean you're a religious freak. Okay, have a great night and day too (in case the other side of the world views it ) Major Lol. 

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo,

Ana :) 

    

This is who I am - Song/poem #amilikey

 

    Good Morning blogger viewers!!! I wanted to share something I wrote a while back that was very special to me and I had sort of left it on the back burner. I thought it could be a song, but I can't sing eloquently --- so it's easier to read it as a poem. 

    Some people say it's not good to talk too much about yourself; however, I think if you have a great story behind yourself: then what are you waiting for? Just share what you have to share if you know it can help someone in the smallest of ways. Believe me when I say people are too shy to admit they need help with the simplest tasks sometimes --- you could be the one to assist by just sharing what you know/ been through yourself. 

    Okay without further intro -- my song/poem :

    "Grew up thinking I was fine 

     But later on I realized 

     My truth was blurred by a mother's love 

     Am not the same as you 

    Why is it so hard 

     To live a life where I belong?

     I'm just another beating heart

    Trying to make it all along 

     This is who I am 

     scarred & flawed 

     All day long 

    This is who I am 

    Smart and not tall 

   But above it all 

   This is who I am 

          Chorus 

You see me smile 

For a while 

But don't you dare , think I'm scared 

To shed a tear 

To make a frown 

I'll make it clear 

I'm here to stay 

  So click that like 

  Or Step aside 

  I've come this far 

  Don't be alarmed 

  I'm a burn survivor 

  & I can conquer my all " 

Thanks again for viewing and reading my blog. As always don't give up on life as much as it knocks you down. Till next time --- remember to subscribe or like and share my blogs!!! Feedback is always welcomed. 

Xoxoxoxoxoxo,

Ana :) 

     

Chapter 31 starts #amilikey

     Hey beloved people online who give oh so many views (cough cough ) not!!! Major Lol. Alright, it has been official for some time now. I am legally thirty-one years old. This new chapter in my life has started whether I was ready for it or not. I wanted my golden big numbered balloons, but it was so expensive I just couldn't do it this time around. Party city (tiene hambre de la buena --- google it) clearly needs to reevaluate their prices if they want to be a bit more inclusive of everyone who wants to celebrate important events. 

    Chapter 31 was celebrated with a nice birthday dress and cake -- view Instagram for the actual pics -- that I found at my local grocery store. Surprisingly received five different gifts this year and that was very nice. However, the very best unexpected gift in my life was being able to celebrate it with some social declutter and toxic removal. In life it is very hard to let go of what seems so comfortable and attachment to things/people who you think care about you. As they say, actions speaks louder than words: in my particular case, reactions speak volumes. I wish no one harm or hate on anyone, and I hope down the line they can actually see it that way. 

    My overall goals are still in progress and to those who constantly look at me with skepticism: I am not done making progress. Realistically speaking, "Yes" I should be way ahead of the curve but certain very bad choices in my part have hindered that success. Blame is a term no one wants to utilize, but I do blame no one other than me for my lack of achievements. The past 30 years of life have thought me valuable lessons and I will put them in place one at a time. To my past failed relationships: you clearly were not meant to be and I do deserve better even if I am not of your liking. 

    Starting a new chapter in my life is like hitting restart. There will be obstacles to jump over and many moments I will want to skip through; yet, none of it will stop me from continuing my journey with my faith. Despite the opposition and the questioning of my own faith, I know who I am and whose I am. God choose me to survive life altering situations and although I haven't been the most faithful: I have never turned away from God for good. My walk in Christ has been shaky and I've committed many sins I will regret forever, but none of that has ever eliminated my desire to serve Him and do whatever it is He wants me to do in life. People say I am judgmental because I speak truth about concepts I do not agree with or tolerate. I say they are wrong in perceiving me in such manner due to their disagreement of ration. 

    I am excited to live out my purpose in life and relieved that God is clearing out my path for greater things to come. I blog because I can, but more importantly: I do it as a way to express all that I have experienced with those in need of some encouragement. Do I have things to learn? Do I make mistakes? Do I open up easily ? Do I need to grow more maturely? Yes!!!! The answer will always be an affirmative yes. Moreover, as I display my life to you, I merely hope you can obtain a little bit of hope to move forward with your own timeline. Not everyone will be a prom king or queen, so remember that you can at least vote for who will become one. In other words, you may not be physically beautiful to popular opinion, but you can still have an impact on making your life count as a beautiful voice.  

     As always, remember God does not make mistakes and therefore your life has a reason to coexist here on planet earth. Finding that purpose: it won't be simple. Scream, cry and punch the pillow if you have to, but never give up on life because it is a hard one. Rejoice in the very small blessing you have now and get ready to acquire new ones up ahead if you place your full trust on Jesus the son of God. Take care and thank you for reading my humble blog. 

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Love, 

Ana :)  

Relationship goals!!! #amilikey

 

    Greetings fellow few bloggers of mine!!! We are here in 2021; I don't know how we made it but we did it somehow. No need to rehash what went down in 2020. I just want to say I am forever grateful for my health and sanity still in place despite the horrible things that went down last year. 

    

    I made new friends over social media and in person. They each are special to me in their individual ways. I can attest to really learning a lot more about the dynamics of friendships and relationships in general. One particular individual, really has opened my eyes to see the flaws no one else was willing to enlighten me in, because they didn't have to interact with me on a daily basis. Looking back on it now I totally see how others perceived me as annoying. I am a mini sound effects lady and I do it naturally all the time without noticing it. My expressions are genuine in the moments reaction and I don't even notice them as they happen. I saw "ewwww" a lot and "Ohhhhhh" with the surprised expression too. 

    I do come off as very child-like persona, people don't take me seriously because I am too bubbly/cheery 24/7. It has taken a lot out of me to admit those traits can be overwhelming to deal with and I would benefit from toning it down. I am not a clown that laughs at just everything and anything either. My emotions are coming from a place of self-expression and not an automatic repetitive response to everything around me. One cannot ever please everyone around you; however, there is a medium to contain yourself from overdoing it with people who are not close to you. In short, keep the real you to close peers only so that no one can come back accusing you of being too this too that. 

    A real friend will not take advantage of your situation, but they will help you get out of it or move forward from it. Friends are not meant to hinder your growth or progress; they are to allow you to blossom into the person God created you to be. No one is perfect, the good and the bad times roll along in everyone's life and a friend sticks by your side in the high or lows. Sharing is caring, but the most important details of your life are best left to your inner circle of less than 10 people. 

    Apart from friendships, there are other very important relationships that need to be valued and appreciated. Sons and daughters -- let us not neglect those who brought us into this world --- remember to love your parents despite their method of parenting towards you. Brothers and sisters -- after our parents pass away we only have each other --- let go of rivalry and animosity amongst each other, as we are not here to compete with one another but build each other up for success. Cousins and cousins (Major Lol) --- do not have sex with each other as there are so much more none related DNA fish in the sea please--- beware of your family and bond with them while they're still here. Grandmas and grandpas do not take on the role of parents to your grandkids; it is your child's responsibility to raise their own kids now. Uncles and aunties, do not cover up for your nieces and nephews to gain their love, rather let it be a love that comes naturally from them to you. 

    Romantically, I am so not an expert to having that special someone. I am trying to acquire experience, but above all things my faith comes first. Do not allow someone to change your life long dreams and morals just because they boost to know more than yourself. It takes two to tango and it takes two to make things happen. This notion of having sex with yourself is absolute nonsense; real sex is between a man and a woman point blank. Lord knew it would take more than one person to build a family and a home, so do not rush your relationship status just to have someone next to you. A man should always be the one to approach a woman in a respectful manner and anything apart from that creates a self-doubt of real intention from their partner. Best advice I have experienced in dating, it feels good to split the bills 50/50 -- out for dinning, shopping, movies, Ubers -- it makes the relationship a shared experience. No one is putting in more effort than the other and it allows for both partners to be seen as equal. 

    Well that is all I have for now. Hope this was a nice piece that can help you in some way and allow you to open up your eyes to the reality of relationships. Have a great day and as always thanks for reading this humble blog. Happy New Year too !!!! 

Long live my hashtag #amilikey 

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,

Ana :)