Early Recap 2024 #amilikey

 

Wow, nobody tells you what being a slacker equals to until you become that slacker. Smh 🤦‍♀️ and yes now I am blogging from my phone because I’m tired of typing and texting helps a lot. Plus, who doesn’t enjoy the fun emojis too. So I’m thinking as creatively as I can and given that my Chapter 34 was so popular with people, I thought okay let me run with that theme. So I figured I could do a pre 2024 review. 

I can attest to having major breakthroughs this year and that is such a wonderful feeling. I successfully traveled outside the country to my beautiful homeland and that was just such a surreal moment. The entire experience could have been better given the actual outcome. I could have enjoyed myself a little bit more if a personal someone would have had a better disposition to the situation, but you can’t control how people carry themselves. Also, avoiding certain tours to experience the culture more would have been a game changer. The tours were nice and beautiful, but I could have been just as happy having home cooked meals in the inner city streets and getting to shop around the local shops. 

I learned a lot about traveling in general and it excites me to know that door is now officially open and ready to be launched time and time again with better itinerary and company. It really hurts to see someone have more fun with strangers than with your own blood born same DNA family. They act like it was my fault and as if I hadn’t done my best to be there for them. Just the shear fact that they genuine smile with a big smile in strangers company verses when I was right next to them just sucker punches me to the core. So yeah that was a super highlight in 2024. 

I celebrated a one year work anniversary at my current job and that’s also a very healthy thing to accomplish because this location means so much more than the previous employer. I can genuinely see myself transitioning from one position to the next for years to come. I can authentically say, “I look forward to celebrating my 10th anniversary and more.” I know I can excel and continue to contribute to the organization and to my own career journey. Side note I love having Apple Music because I can also log in via the laptop 💻 and listen in to avoid all the annoying YouTube ads!!! Major Lol 😂. 

Another 2024 highlight, I ran two major races and extended my range to 5miles and although it may not seem like a lot— it still is a great accomplishment for me and my end goal of one time marathon. I met new colleagues in my new unit and I’ve had a lot fun getting to know them. Soon enough I’ll be able to talk shop with them all and be in the nurse lingo world which feels incredible!!! 

Overall 2024 thus far has been very good to me. I wish I had even more goals in the books but at least I can say I did something meaningful and new this year. I can close out the year knowing I didn’t waste the time or opportunities. I acquired new knowledge and new CNA certification— hey I know go me!! I had also a micro mini two day staycation in a deluxe suite so that was also super fun and enjoyable!!! I cannot look back on this year and say nothing good happened, because a lot of great things did. So again thanks for tuning in and remember my favorite phrase. I’m too tired to text it now Lol and copy and paste it. 

Xoxoxoxooxo 

Ana 🥹

Younger Partner Wish #amilikey

 

    Hey my superstars followers/fans Lol. I am so like -- why didn't I keep up with my blog when I should have and had plenty of time. Now, I am sweating the bullets trying to provide the five blogs I promised for the night. I took like a 10 minute break while I plugged in my laptop and browsed my phone that is also charging. My small firm bootie is starting to hurt from sitting here doing all this typing. I honestly don't know how people enjoy sitting all day. I cannot stand sitting for more than 45 minutes tops without moving and feeling numbness in my butt -- like honestly sitting for long periods of time is pure torture. Even when I am at church, I be like please hurry up I can't take it anymore from sitting. I literally change sitting positions like five to seven times during the sermon, because I just can't stay that long in the same position. 

        So that was a lengthy intro to prolong the blog -- you're welcome. Major Lol. So when I say that I am looking forward to a younger partner let me elaborate before I get accused of some weird cougar thing. I know my eggs (inside my ovaries) are not as young as a lucky 20 year old female, so given the physical facts it makes sense to mix my eggs with younger sperm to create healthy babies. Yes, I did say it like that. I am thinking in the age range of 5 years younger max, because anything outside that would be super creepy and uncomfortable. Right now it would be 30 year old male that would fit the age preference and also a man older than 35 would be like -- mmm I don't want someone with less energy than me. Someone older would be risking me having to take care of him as an old dying man. He would also come with even more baggage like baby mommas or ex wife -- which I really don't want to have to deal with at all. I know when it comes to a life partner, I want someone who has never been in love before and has also not chosen someone else before me. I want to be the number one pick in the draft to make it into the big leagues - as a wife. I don't want to question his true intensions of whether or not he is just settling with me as a favor to me, because he already had his "real" love before. 

    A younger partner within the five year span, could also add so much more to my life in terms of energy and excitement. He obviously can make me feel younger and can teach me the popular new things. Major Lol. I am also not knocking the obvious choice of being the same age or like very close to it too. I really hope after all this damn time waiting and longing for a partner the Lord really compensates me with an incredible man, because damn it's been a long minute. I know I am not perfect, but I have so much to offer a man that the average Jane with flawless skin could never measure up to even if she tried. I can cook, I can clean, I can be a real wife that brings true happiness into your life. I am not the control-freak that tracks your every move, I will not monitor your phone or social media, and I will not doubt your loyalty when interacting with other females in any capacity. If you value me -- then I don't need to smoother you like a child. Read my marriage proposal and you'll get all the details of how I want to carry out a real marriage. 

        Oh snap this one was more of my thing because I said a lot more. Major Lol. Now to the finishing touch -remember to comment, like, share, and subscribe too!!! Alright, we got this in the bag, I am gonna use the copy and paste to keep it moving too. Okay that concludes the status report on my personal life. As always remember to remind yourself, " You are not a mistake, because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes." You have a reason and a purpose to fulfill so allow God into your life sooner than later. Thank you for your support and brief attention.

Xoxoxooxoxooxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

Situationships -- Wowzer #amilikey

 

Hey I am back -- Lol. That was a quick one right. So moving on to the next little subject I have to speak on this new terminology that has resurfaced in the past few months. Situationship -- defined as a relationship that hasn't hashed out the details with concrete certainty. It is between a FWB (friends with benefits) and an acquaintance. You are "talking" but the parameters haven't been defined with great detail and you are walking on egg shells. I have taken the situationship to be defined as this from what I have seen on social media. Now, looking at my past relationships -- I can definitely say with confidence I too had several situationships. They are not glamourous and leave you more empty than before you were engaging with someone. 

    I do not endorse or recommend you enter a situationship any time soon, in fact, I'd say the exact opposite -- please stay clear of this interaction because nothing good can come of it. You think you can change a man and make him into the person you'd like to be with, but no honey he will not change for you. I wasted too much time holding on to that stupid rhetoric and that time is precious so don't waste it. I also love this Poppins font style in case you were wondering too. Major Lol. Okay, yes I am just trying to fil in the space and make it a little longer because I want to move on to the next blog post already. Side note -- I also have people that I find super irritating because they have such negative/demeaning way of talking all the time. I get so happy when our schedules don't line up and I don't have to see them at work. Don't act like you can't relate, because I know you do too. 

    Alright, we got this in the bag, I am gonna use the copy and paste to keep it moving too. Okay that concludes the status report on my personal life. As always remember to remind yourself, " You are not a mistake, because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes." You have a reason and a purpose to fulfill so allow God into your life sooner than later. Thank you for your support and brief attention.

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :) 

My status #amilikey

 

    Bon Nuit my beloved bloggers tonight!!! I have decided to crank out five blogs just to get me to the half mark for this entire goal. I know this blog doesn't provide financially at all but it means a lot to me so I will keep going as much as I can. I have chosen to revamp the layout to see if that will spark new interest in it maybe or maybe not. I am not too tech savvy but I feel like this is the most healthy outlets I have to keep me grounded and motivated. The following blogs will not be that extensive because obviously time is of the essence and given my prior confessions to not being the best type writer in the world it doesn't facilitate that either. I have gone back and forth between the two keyboards to see which facilitates this process along much further.  I also have to ensure until I get my own room again, I can be respectful to my family and not make that much noise. So, the laptop keyboard is the winner for now. 

    I know the most relevant subject people want to hear about is "relationship" type of intel, so I am going to run with that theme and see how many I can squeeze out tonight. My current status is unfortunately single and not taken in the least bit at all. So if you know a 30 year old male who has faith and a personal relationship with the Lord -- hey holla at me bruh. Major Lol. Oh that brings me to the other dumb/ fantasy motivation for blogging. I always think what if my future hubby stumbled upon my social media presence and was like wow --this woman is amazing and look how good of a writer she is too. You know you always hope something you have a passion for will lead you to something even greater like a mate in this case. I know that has like 0.00001 % probability to come true, but it still gives me a little kick to think it theoretically could happen. No one falls in love with someone they happen to discover online because of their great content. 

    So, that pretty much sums up the status situation I am in and half been my whole life minus the lies and FWBs. In other ways, it is nice to know that no man can claim me as their crazy ex -- Major Lol. I am not wanted to be projected as a "wild one"' but it is slightly surprising to think some people see me as a virgin and innocent person based on how I carry myself today. I know my bubbly personality can lead someone to think I am just so innocent and "sheltered" but honey I have my dark timeline unfortunately too. I am also not "talking" to anyone either-- in case you were wondering. I am not on dating apps unless I just didn't bother to delete my profile to get the hashtag promo. I have several eye candies at work, but that is the equivalent of nothingness, because it's just a distraction with no interaction. Major Lol. I made it rhyme how about that --so yeah I am super solo. The few individuals I stay in touch as strictly amicable and platonic as in the friend zone for sure for sure. 

    Okay that concludes the status report on my personal life. As always remember to remind yourself, " You are not a mistake, because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes." You have a reason and a purpose to fulfill so allow God into your life sooner than later. Thank you for your support and brief attention. 

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

Big News #amilikey

 

Greetings my beloved people!!! I think this time I overdid it when it came to cramming 50 blogs in one year without keeping up with the projected count per month. I'm still not even at the halfway point and I'm struggling between fighting for the goal or just saying screw it. But anyways, back to the theme of the ball for tonight. The big news 📰 hot 🔥 fresh from the oven. Major Lol. 

    After much deliberation I have decided to get back on track to a real career. I discovered my true passion in the medical field as I was working  in housekeeping. I know patient care is the most important and I enjoy helping people/patients. Given that I've found my true calling career wise-- I am going back to school to complete my prerequisites for nursing. I enrolled at my former community College and I begin spring semester 2025 January 7th!!!!! I am super excited and thrilled to know I can finally pursue a career that will be lifechanging in so many aspects of my life. I will finally be able to make a real contribution in the medical field and give back just a little of all the care that was given to me as a long time patient with burn care. 

That is my big news and I hope it gives you inspiration and hope not to ever give up on achieving more in life. I know it will take a lot of time and effort to be a full time student and work full time but it is the discipline I need to stay grounded and focused. I am the nerd who will miss not being in a classroom in person setting because all my classes are online for this semester. However, I'll do my best to enjoy every bit of it as it comes. As always thanks for tuning in and remember, "You are not a mistake because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes." You have a purpose and a reason to live, so allow yourself to let Jesus step into the mist. 

Xoxoxoxooxoxo, 

Ana :) 

Eye Candies #amilikey

 

    Hey everyone!!! So I am like super on a crunch to get this 50 blog goal this year to success. I know I wanted to even it out throughout the year and post more frequently but obviously I didn't discipline myself as I should have done all along. Nevertheless, as basic of a goal I still want to see it through and ensure me a great big checkmark at the end of this year. 

    I know the majority of my stories don't interest the worldwide audience especially when I make emphasis of the Lord Jesus Christ, but I could care less because He is my reason for living and I want to ensure that He remains number one in my life always. I have struggled with having healthy relationships all my life. Even as a kid, in school I was always toss and swapped from one group to the next because I never fit in. I did my best to keep a low profile and remain as invisible as possible. All the so called "friends" were fake people in my life that only interacted with me in the moment, but after the moment happened they were the first to forget about me. All the signatures on my school yearbooks are nothing but lies. All that "keep in touch" and "you are the best" were bull crap. 

    So given the reality of my social situation, I try to distract myself with eye candies. Let me define an eye candy - a man who I find attractive because he has good-looking features. I look and smile from the visual gratification of seeing someone who is cute. Afterwards, that is the end of the moment. I see them and I enjoy the sight and move on right next to whatever is going on in my life. I have never established a connection or even a basic acquaintance relationship with any eye candy I have ever had for more than maybe a short time lived. As soon as they find out about my eye candy reference towards them, it's like being back in school with that yuck rhetoric of "eww she has cooties." I get that none of them will see me as their eye candy, but to automatically feel that grossed out feeling because someone like me finds them attractive is just so annoying and yes hurtful too. So, the majority of all the eye candies happen to be the meanest/stupidest men in the world too. 

    A fresh example, at my current job - I have an eye candy that I've known since I started there over a year ago. Given my great research skills I figured out his name and found him on LinkedIn as well. I mean it's not rocket science, and he wants to pursue a career as a surgeon. Before I messaged him and requested him on LinkedIn, I had also sent him a funny thank you eCard via the work email. Of course he never bothered to look at it or if he ever did, he never said thank you or mentioned it at all. He comes to my unit very randomly from time to time, but he always has the same demeanor towards me or in general. He never says hi or smiles. He is always so cold and silent. But I obviously have seen him smile before and talk all friendly with his immediate coworkers, so clearly it's selective behavior towards others. I mean I know he is way out of my league in many ways and we are not compatible at all. But it won't hurt to be amicable and perhaps become colleagues that could somehow be a benefit towards each other as a networking opportunity. Yes, I do find him attractive, but I know how to control myself and act professional. 

    One funny now eye candy was a sports celebrity I used to call "my husband" back in the day. He was Alex Rodriguez the NY Yankees baseball player. I was obsessed with him in high school. Every time I would see him on TV I'd literally touch the TV and say that stupid phrase. Major Lol. Now, in my more mature life as an adult, I am embarrassed that I used to do that and I have to just laugh at myself. He hasn't aged well at all and the fact that he has dated some shady females like Madonna and JLo it's even more gross. So that is basically the gist of how I acquire eye candies and how it is the most innocent and annoying social aspect of my life. 

    Eye candies are a fun momentary distraction until they know and it becomes hurtful/painful to be regarded in such a demeaning way of rejection with discuss. Well, hope someone at least once reads this blog and gets something out of it. Also, proves my main stands against being called beautiful -- the good-looking men never ever see me as "beautiful", to them I couldn't be more repulsive. I know who I am and what I am and my beauty died a long time ago and I accept it and can still live past that aspect of my life being gone for good. I am smart, funny, caring and overall amazing personality. I look nice when I smile and I can be my own kind of cute, but that is about it and that is the only real truth. So every time I hear that word - I am like wow what a liar and suck up pity party fool. Anyways, remember you are not a mistake because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes. You have a purpose and a reason to live even if you aren't anyone's eye candy. You might be average and let's be real even a little less than average, but who cares - you have other more important qualities and attributes. 

Thanks for tuning in and let's see how many I can crank out tonight. 

Xoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

  

5 Miles Tell All #amilikey

 

    Hey you beautiful people!!! So, this year is really coming to a close sooner than later and I have yet to meet my goal for the year of posting 50 blogs. I know this was a projected number to be ascertained; however, I am gonna have to do some major comeback because I haven't even reached the half mark of 25. I know I have it in me and all I need is some serious discipline. My writing is not Noble Prize worthy, but I feel that I do have things to say that will help someone over the struggles they may be facing like I once was enduring. People will always criticize your work regardless of its value. Therefore, why waste time letting that prevent you from creating the work you know you can put forth. I have always loved writing, because I love to talk and it's the only medium through which I can say as much as I want to without being interrupted or cut off. 

    The emphasizes of my writing is solely founded on encouraging people to do better and be better by allowing Jesus into your life, and believing there is more to accomplish in this world than the bare minimum. In my work life, I have created a lot of friendly coworkers which I am grateful for, but it means more to me to reach them on a personal level and leave behind the same spark that drives me to post each and every time -- encouragement. A lot of them have told me that I do inspire them from my own bubbly personality and that is a confirmation to my purpose. I have what it takes to lead people to knowing that life's obstacles are not a sentencing for failure and defeat but the reason to push harder when you are down. Apart from my own personal attitude of positivity and love, I also have attributes that enhance my skills to fulfill this purpose in life of doing better. I am a funny person by nature and I do enjoy laughing (making silly faces, sound effects, joking around, being playful, etc.). Not to toot my own horn, but even complete strangers within a matter of minutes draw a fondness to me and I am not even trying but being me. Major Lol. Like for example, when I get into my feelings -- full disclosure, I end up chatting with online strangers seeking that human interaction and this one male allegedly in his 40s said I was so much fun to talk to after just maybe 20 minutes of small talk. Obviously, this wasn't the first time hearing this same notion in regards to my persona. I honestly can say 90% of all the people I've ever met would not have anything bad to say about me in regards to who I am as a person. Does that mean I am perfect? Hello-- you know the answer: No! No one is ever perfect, but you can be perfect for someone and that is the someone I want to be to my future husband. I say that to make emphasizes that I am a likeable person in the real world once you give me a chance to talk and interact with you. 

    So at the BoltRun, I arrived super early from my deluxe suite nearby and per usual no one approached me before the race began or when it ended. Everyone was just glaring at me in disbelief that someone with so many physical burn scars could be out here running 5 miles with the rest of the fit people. I am never going to genuinely win any race because logistics are real and no matter how much I improve or train (which I will continue doing so) I cannot out run physically taller women who can cover more ground with ever step. Given the reality of my own height, strength, and physical ability -- I am more than satisfied with running and finishing every race before at least a small group of people. In this last race, I did beat 28 other runners who came after I already crossed the finish line and two women in my own category. I am happy to know I wasn't the last one and given my physical condition -- I deserve credit for performing as well as I did given the other setback of my right knee hurting the last mile and a half to go. 

    Other than the usual social aspect of it, there isn't much juicy intel to disclose. I am like 95% sure I saw my former science teacher from high school for a split second, and I thought about approaching her, but than I know what kind of questions she would have and I didn't want to have to explain myself in that moment. Honestly speaking, my former teachers/professors wouldn't be satisfied to see me where I am today career wise. I was that "A" student who excelled and was always so dedicated to my studies to be struggling to be taken seriously at almost age 35. I expected so much more from myself too and I know they were expecting great things from my career. I just don't like having to face people from my past and be a let down when I am not where I dreamed I would be this late in the game. Even to this day, despite the friendly rhetoric people still make fun of me for not having a career and not reaching basic milestones like driving. They say it jokingly, but I am not an idiot to receive the real meaning behind their smartass comments. 

        Anyways, apart from seeing two former runners from previous races, I didn't met anyone special or have a fun story to tell. I saw one coworker volunteering and that was basically it. It's sad to say that in the crowd of over 1,000 people and my presence was like I wasn't even there. I didn't make any paparazzi news not even at work with their overview video. Another race in the books for me, but still no social game change. C'est la vie. Those that wish they could interact with me are literally miles and miles away in foreign lands and those that are right next to me could care less. Either way my vida goes on and I am forever grateful to be able to run even if it's slow. Thank you for your support and till next time hashtag amilikey out!!!

Remember you are not a mistake because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes. You are here for a purpose and a reason so go let Jesus show you the way!!!! 

Xoxoxoxoxooxxoxo,

Ana :) 

       

Hurricane Milton #amilikey

    

    Greetings my beloved bloggers of mine. I am beyond grateful to know that I have survived the literal hurricane that just passed by our Tampa Bay area. I am forever grateful to know I am well and despite the unexpected living situation – I can move forward from this and continue my livelihood. It was a lot of rain and wind, but I was never scared or worried I’d suffer any physical harm. I walked outside the streets in my neighborhood and the inner streets are completely flooded and that was a shocker to see that much inundation.

          All the main stores are closed but thank God for the Hispanic spirit to work hard and the Latin store was open. We purchased a few goods and made our way back to our temporary home. I am currently without power in my refurbished laptop as I type out this blog. I made sure to have it fully charged before I left. I am praying the power gets restored before night fall because I only have one other small portable charger and that is for phone usage. My actual phone carrier has left me very disappointed in the aftermath of the storm considering my mom’s carrier gets WhatsApp messages better than me on an iPhone (an old edition but still). My mom’s android phone gets better signal on another carrier, and I am just like – wow that’s not fair and I might jump ship when I get a chance or perhaps maybe just sign up for a real phone carrier other than the third-party carriers.

          I wish I would have also grabbed my books to use this time wisely and do my non-fiction reading but oh well that is a little too late to process now that I am here, and my books are not with me. I had to ensure I saved my laptop for sure for sure!! Major Lol. We are all putting on a brave face, but internally still questioning and wondering how our living situation will change and continue from here on out. I’ve had to sacrifice my body for the greater good and sleep on the floor, because there is only one full size bed and one sofa bed, and me and my family are a total of 4 people. I am the strongest out of them all and I can sleep whenever which has always been my advantage, so I’ll nap before the night starts so I can get some sleep time on a bed.

          It makes me happy to know someone came to our rescue in this desperate time of need and we didn’t have to end up at a shelter or paying out of pocket hotels. Our landlord has always failed the safety inspections that should take precedent over profit. They act like if it is not completely broken – it can still wait till later and later ended up leaving us with a collapsed roof. I was shell-shocked when I went upstairs, and all the drywall debris was laying on the floor all over like wet confetti. I couldn’t believe my eyes and the water was pouring down through the drywall onto the living room downstairs. It was not safe at all especially considering a hurricane was about to pour over.

          So that is where we stand today, and my hope is always on the Lord because through it all He remains loyal. He shall provide a new home for me and my family and that is what I am standing on. Thank you for always being my outlet to share and express my feelings about my whereabouts. All the love and support for all the people who survived and endured this hurricane Milton.   

Xoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)