LeBron Gone

   Heeeeyyyy!!! Say hello to the best team in the league - my boys the Golden State Warriors aka NBA 2018 Champions. If you haven't already noticed I love basketball and I am a baller myself. I have been viewing the NBA Finals since I was 12 years old and I have never missed a Finals series. My favorite teams are as follows: 

1. LA Lakers
2. SAN ANTONIO Spurs 
3. MIAMI Heat
4. GOLDEN STATE Warriors 

       My beloved mommy also loves basketball and we watch the games together all the time. She stayed up till 3 or 4 am when the Olympics was going on in China in 2008 or 2010, because USA basketball team was going for gold versus Spain. I tried to stay up but I was too tired and sleepy - I was rooting for Spain anyways (they lost and obtained Silver metals). 

      I have purchased 5 basketballs in my lifetime. I call it my baby - it is so pretty and beautiful ball. I recently bought a charm designed in a - you know it - basketball !!!!  It is a gold basketball charm and I wear it 24/7, to the shower and to bed. I am thinking about getting me a little tat on my hip with the NBA logo and with the calligraphy saying Baller baby. I still want to purchase a basketball jersey and some basketball shorts and maybe some Jordans too.  

       I love shooting hoops with my eye candy Nathan, because he takes off his shirt and the beaming sun makes his sexy body and six pack glisten too. He is so damn good looking and he actually helps me improve my shots. I have been friends with him for over 5 years and I think I have a huge crush on him - well I like like like him a lot. He already told me he doesn't like me that way and he could never be with someone who looks like me. This broke my heart and will forever hurt deeply; yet, I still keep loving him and stayed friends with him because I want to be his best friend. 

       He is a great baller, but nothing in comparison to my ex skills. He is amazing and I wish he could join the NBA but  his height prohibits him from doing so. I will forever appreciate the time we spent together and I wish him the very best. So, let me shut up and wrap it up before I loose your attention. 

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Must be the Money

         CHA CHING I know money makes the world go round. I have had some cha ching in the past, but no where close to being sufficiently stocked with money. I took out 6 credit cards because I wasn't working and needed certain things. Yes, it makes no sense, but I have a good credit score so why not utilize it when I needed it the most. People will judge me for being irresponsible and ambitious- I see it as being resourceful and self-sufficient. I pay my monthly payments with plasma donations and other things I've sold at the pawn shop. 

     Everybody can judge me for whatever reason they want to; however, they're not in my place facing my needs. Yes, I have also asked a few of my friends to lend me some money too. I will repay each and everyone of them with interest because I am a woman of my word as well. Money is essential in this kind of world- just don't let it control you. Be smart about those Benjamins and remember to save when it is possible. Don't be stubborn and take the budget list accordingly. 

       I want to be successful, but there are certain things I will never do in order to get there. I don't believe and agree with lottery playing. It may be easy money - it is also cursed money. I want to feel the satisfaction of knowing everything I have in my bank account came from my hard work. I am not looking for hand-me-downs nor will I accept pitiful donations. If you want to enable me by donating to my gofundme account then that's acceptable. Please feel free to critic my work. Feedback is always encouraged and welcomed. 

      I have a good grip on money, but I will become profitable one day. Don't let my current loans and debt fool you. My family is business savvy and I have what it takes to make it to the very top. Best believe me or defeat me. Have a wonderful Tuesday day!!! 

    Till next time ya bestie blogger Ana !!!!


Xooxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :) 

   

Suicidal

   Life is precious! No one knows with exact certainty when they will inhale their last breath. When it will be the last time that they come across their loved ones. When it will be the last time they get laid or laid off. So many last times, yet, none can compare to a last goodbye. I have been fortunate thus far to never have been through a last goodbye. I hope I never have to experience one any time soon. I am an emotional person in general, so thinking of losing someone I love forever is gut-wrenching. 

    I am a miracle baby and to think I would want to deprive  myself of my own life - was just a thought I never saw plausible. Years later, I found myself in that situation twice within 4 years. It stemmed from episodes of severe depression. Being depressed is bad enough, now double that intensity and make it severe for over four consecutive months. They came alongside insomnia and loss of appetite, no desire for hygiene maintenance, constant raging negative/diabolical thoughts and complete isolation from the world (including friends and family). 

    I began to think the depression would never end. I was mentally exhausted to the point where I wanted to shut down my brain. The constant reminders of my past failures and distress increased my anxiety. I could not let five minutes pass by without having thought of more than 10 things in a row. I felt so much guilt and remorse for my life choices - this made me feel like the worst person in the world. I initiated my suicidal behavior by thinking of ways by which I could commit suicide. I would look down at my wrist and imagine myself cutting it with a scissor or a knife. I would also look at my ankles as well. I tried to cover up my face with a pillow and hold it there without me breathing once. When I stood on the second floor, I would look over the railing out in the balcony and would repeat over and over in my head, "just do it and get it over with now, just jump over." 

     I verbally repeated several times, " I quit, I can't do it anymore, no more." Nothing could make me feel better: not the medication, not the company, no gifts, no visits, and really nothing made it better. It was genuinely only by GOD's infinite mercy and grace that allowed me to survive and come out on the other side. So, please feel free to ask questions and comment your feedback. Life is so beautiful, but no one should live it in depression and suicidal thoughts. Please seek help and remember: to every life's problem there is an alternative solution that does not involve killing yourself. Whether or not you believe in God, trust me that killing yourself doesn't solve anything but condemns your soul to eternal hell. 

      Thank you for taking the time to read my post. Hope to inspire one person at a time. Remember you are important to God and you have a purpose in life - regardless of your situation at this time. 


Xoxoxoxoxoxo,

Ana :)

       

Born to Porn?

    Oh baby come get some... harder, harder, harder ahhhh ohhhh mmmmm. Are you serious right now? Yes, I am being serious people. So many people ignore the subject, because it's too X-rated. Listen it's 2018 not 1920- let's be real with the issues at hand. So, for starters lets define porn: a video displaying body parts going in and out of other body parts. Sometimes they use roles and equipment, and they always exaggerate the intensity of the pleasure. 

    Is porn legal? Well, they have playboy so I assume to a certain extent: yes it is. Should kids or teens be exposed or have access to porn? Absolutely not!!!!! They barely know how to wipe their ass to be trying to stick something up there. It is a degrading activity to be sharing such an intimate act to the whole wide world. Yes, it gets someone hard/wet but the end game is you are not edifying yourself. Why make making love into something so despicable that it becomes an addiction.

     Love is suppose to be shown in many different ways, but making love to the love of your life should be a special moment. Why watch people having sex when you should be having sex with your spouse. Yes, I've been there and done that unfortunately. My eyes saw porn at age eleven - not by choice but by being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

       After that one time it took years before my eyes were once more corrupted. I became sexually active at age 24 so, I obviously ended up getting involved in that realm. I watched to learn what the hell I was suppose to be doing, yet, that didn't help me at all. Overall, porn is not a choice you should advocate for or get involved with it at all. You were not born to porn!!

       Well, there you have it. One more interesting and opinionated blog about life's issues. Don't be shy about talking about your problems. Always seek help and never give up to make yourself a better person -no matter what your past has been. There is always opportunity to make something successful out of yourself. Believe in your goals and smile because God loves you!!!!

        Xoxoxoxoxooxoxo,

         Ana :)

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My Drugs

  Hello people of this social media platform!!!! I have been gifted with words; plenty of words that make beautiful, fun, and creative sentences that later become awesome paragraphs. I am using this large cool font to advocate for those who might be visually impaired like myself because I ware glasses. 

   Now, let's get high!!! Wait what??? Girl you is crazy. Nah, I meant let's get high as in into the drug zone. I have been on 99.9% of legal drugs since I was born into this cruel world. When my accident happened my body was placed under induce comma; which is a procedure they use with specific medication to keep your brain asleep. Before every surgery and after the procedure I was given medicine to operate on me and medicine to help with the pain of being cut open.

    I was then prescribed antibiotics for about two weeks after the release of the hospital and for any pain. I avoid taking medicine in general, because I have been pumped with medicine left and right since I was only three years old. I have taken Midol, Tylenol, Advil, and Pepto-Bismol. I did take a few puffs from the mary-jane , but it was a waste of time because I was already tipsy. I am not proud of that limited usage but it happened - mainly under peer-pressure. 

    Apart from that I have also been under anti-depressants and sleeping pills over the counter and then the real hard-shit too. I have survived two severe episodes of depression and it was not cool to be on so many medications. The Lord is faithful and I have been over 75 days Seroquel free and I sleep like a good baby again. People take sleeping for granted, but when your body physically can't sleep on it's own it is hell. I have been there twice and I hope to never ever see a third time episode. My natural melatonin is the best kind of sleep I could ever ask for in life.

     So, there you have it. My drugs in a lifetime usage. I hope you learned new concepts and information on drugs. Please stay safe out there and don't experiment, and avoid being under any kind of peer-pressure. Drugs are not good for your body regardless of if they are legal or not.

     Love to hear back from my readers and bloggers!!!!

xoxoxoxoxo,

-Ana :)

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Naughty or Haughty

   

    Do you wanna come out and play? Umh... what are you talking about I am a grown woman- I don't have time for games boy. 

 

   Silly pudding right? Yes, of course it is, but I got your attention and that is what counts. My titles are usually creative for the most part, and I want to keep it that way. I have always been a good student/peer throughout my schooling. However, there comes a time in everyone's life where you get a little loose. 

 

    Online dating - not recommended- brought out of me the most X-rated version of myself I didn't know existed within me. I will always regret the time and effort I placed during these months, because I gained nothing and lost so many precious moments of my life. One-night stands are not glamorous neither are one-day stands in a vehicle. 

 

     I have been more than just naughty and it wasn't worth it. I have been called a haughty and it got me into trouble that just gave me double the heartbreak. Please keep yourself out of the naughty list and be nice. No one ever made a friend over being a bad ass; let's be real - being bad is fun until you get caught being naughty. 

 

    So if you have a choice between being naughty or a haughty - just be you and let the rest be left alone. Don't make your life so complicated with all these diverse social norms being pushed and promoted by society. Remember in the end they are not worth the time and it has real life consequences for a lifetime that cannot be undone by blocking; un-liking; un-following; or deleting. 

 

    Learn to love yourself first and foremost above everyone else. Be smart about your choices in partner interactions: ladies - don't give away free samples, guys- don't show your Popsicle. Sex and pleasure can always be found and obtained within minutes, but true love and admiration takes a lifetime to endure and experience - don't waste that precious time. 

Xoxoxoxoxo,

 

- Ana :) 

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Guest Blogging ????

 

Hey bloggers!!! 

If anyone is interested in having me as a guest blogger, I would gladly be able to do so. 

Believe me I have plenty to discuss and talk about on almost every subject in life. 

Feel free to contact me via email agonzalez31120@gmail.com

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