Chapter 7 Officially Closed #Amilikey

 

    Hey bloggers!!! I have been MIA for reals this time and as always, I excuse myself, but also realistically -- is anybody really missing my writing? No. I treat this blog more like a public diary and therapeutic output. I come from time to time to update thee on my whereabouts, but overall, nothing like monumental comes from my posts. I still daydream that somehow someway the right person will come across this page and see my potential. In terms of a future partner or an incredible career opportunity, that this humble blogpost would attract that person in power/position to facilitate that opportunity for myself. I know I am a relatively good writer and apart from my articulation skills, I also am the whole package in terms of creating a successful businesswoman. 

    My experience is not as vast as others out there; however, I have resilience that comes from my tenacity not to ever give up again in pursuit of being a contributing member of society for the greater good. I genuinely feel that because I have lacked a few things in life, no one has ever genuinely given me the right opportunity to blossom and showcase my true talent in the workforce. Would I be able to take on a leadership role right this second? No, I am not exactly at that stage in my development, but I am definitely past the entry level tedious tasks, and I am more than capable of doing and intermediate assignment. I do not need constant monitoring to get the job done right, and I am someone you can rely on to fulfill the required project. So, with all of this highlighted it is with a bittersweet sentiment that I once again admit failure in choosing the correct employer in my lifetime. 

    Hindsight is 20/20, I now see that I broke my promise and allowed the red flags to go pass the inspection stage of the employer validation from me. I honestly said it in my own head at some point of the interview, "I will never come back to this place" those were my exact words in my mind. I mean if you can't listen to that warning, then it really is on you to blame for the outcome. The facility lacked structure from the start, and the interview area was outdated/non-functional for a clinic. In the past, I had belonged to an urgent care that had the same issue, and I vowed I would never work in a place where there was no actual breakroom. Then there was literally only one bathroom for over 10 employers at any given day. The equipment on both ends was embarrassing to say the least, how can you provide adequate service to patients when you are working with old/rusty equipment. I kid you not, the floor was literally broken at the front desk, and they were still using plastic drawers as storage. 

    This is a multi-million-dollar company with over 200 locations in several states, and this is how you operate your facilities. It is astonishing to fathom that a clinic bringing in literal thousands of dollars each week can't be adequately taken care of in terms of its infrastructure. I mention all of this as a genuine constructive criticism and not to "bad mouth" this entity. People need their physical therapy treatment, and it would be nice to be able to say they're getting the service they actually paid for in all areas. Several patients constantly complained about the service, and I absolutely agree with them 100% because they are right. If you are being charged for a service and given an actual time frame, why can't it be serviced as promised? Let me take a wild guess, because the delivery method doesn't take into consideration what is best for the patient but only what will yield the most profit. Instead of properly scheduling patients for a one-on-one session for 30 minutes, you would rather schedule four people for an hour without constant monitoring because that means you charged 4x instead of 2x 30 minutes sessions. 

    As one provider put it lightly, "At Cora we do not thrive, we just survive" those were their exact words, and this is coming from a provider who is doing the actual work. I definitely should have googled the reviews from past employees and seen that it definitely makes sense when they refer to this clinic as a mill factory just putting out sessions without the proper care just for more profit. The clinicians are burn out because the expectation of seeing so many patients without being able to truly give them the undivided attention is overwhelming. I tried my best to fit in and accommodate to the crazy environment, but it was just too much chaos and no true compensation. I always wish them the best, but it sucks to have had to endure something that didn't yield much benefit for me. 

    I definitely learned a hard lesson; it is always better to wait a little longer to attain something worthwhile than to take the first offer out of desperation. My manager was very kind to me, and I will always be grateful for that kindness she extended to me, but the company needs a better overall system. Overall, I truly discovered I am tired of entry level positions; answering phones/making phone calls is not for me. I may not have utilized my B.A. in geography; nonetheless, it is still proof that I am more than capable of learning a new trade above entry level. I do not want another front desk either, attending to incoming clients is exhausting and overall direct customer service is particularly irritating for me because a constant dealing with people's judgement/reaction towards my "pretty" face aka burn scars. 

     So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxo, 

ANA :) 

Momma, Mommy, Mami #amilikey

 

   Good evening beloved bloggers!!! I have been waiting to produce a blog piece unlike no other. This piece is going to be the very best I’ve produced in a long time. I wish there was a way to bring up a subject I didn’t have to interject myself, but that’s very hard to do in order to give it my best. 

   A mother is one of the most beautiful titles a woman can hold, but more than that it is a lifetime commitment and responsibility even after their children become adults. I have the honor of being able to say God gave me the top tier of mothers. She has shown unconditional love beyond what is normal and thus exposed herself to even domestic violence just to keep us safe and out of the streets. You may think this compromise is ironic; however, if you knew how she was raised and how much she lacked then it all makes sense. My mother grew up in absolute poverty where there was no running water, indoor plumbing, electricity or any standard structure. Her home was made up of two squares joined together by metal roofing and wooden rustic doors. I know this because it’s the memory I’ll never forget as I went to her home as a 6 year old. 

    It’s not my story to tell in full detail but she ran away from home because she was in dire need of basic human necessities. In short, she was denied the opportunity to earn a basic education and she had to start working since she was only a preteen just so she could survive. My Mumi as I dearly call her has been through serious life hardships I wish upon no one. She may not have been able to give me a lavish lifestyle or even the common “comfortable” American lifestyle, but her unconditional love for me is what has kept me alive through my darkest days. 

     It’s hard to admit that after everything she has sacrificed and done for I failed her on many occasions as a daughter. She has done her very best to teach me right from wrong since I was a child. I still chose to do wrong out of my own disobedience and rebellion. I broke every promise on things I said I’d never be a part of because I knew how detrimental they were if I partook. Even after she knew my failure, she never stopped loving me and welcoming me back with open arms. I know no one in life is perfect, but as a believer it hits ten times harder when you slip away and fail to keep the promises you made your mother. 

     My mom is my hero and my guardian angel here on earth. She has kept me alive since I was just a fetus and my abusive biological father came home drunk and wanted her to abort me. He would purposely hit her in her abdomen hoping she would loose me, and against all odds she kept me safe while enduring the physical abuse. As most of you already know she too rescued me from the flames that were burning me alive without caring if she got hurt herself. When I was going through a severe depression in 2014 thinking my life was over because I could not find a single paying job: she was there through it all and helped me get through it/out of it. 

   My mom taught me how to ride a bicycle even though she can’t do it herself. She always tells me I am beautiful because she’s the only one who can see past my scars and even finds beauty in them. The most important gift she has given me is her unwavering example of what it means to have faith in the Lord. Time after time, it has been her faith in God that has gotten our family through trials and tribulations. I always tell her she has plenty of hours in Heaven’s bank because she prays so much and is so consistent. I admire her bravery and courage to face life with gratitude and positivity. My Mumi is God’s constant consolation and without her I don’t know where I’d be. I thank the Lord every day for giving me my mother even if I disagree with her ways of thinking sometimes and get annoyed on how much she sometimes loves me that she smoothers me. 

  Today and everyday whatever the situation may be appreciate your mother and reach out to her today. I hope this blog can bring some much needed encouragement and hope of how much love God pours into moms. Motherhood is one of my greatest aspirations and I hope that I can come to endure it soon enough. May the Lord bless all the moms and the ones to be and comfort those who couldn’t birth but chose to adopt and be a mom nonetheless!! Thank you for listening and remember, “You are not a mistake, because God is perfect and He has a purpose and plan for your life.” Please feel free to leave a comment and check out my YouTube channel using #amilikey. 

Favor of the Lord #Amilikey

     Greetings my beloved beautiful followers/bloggers!! I am on a continuing journey of growth and discovery of becoming the woman God called me to be in this cruel world. I know that no-one here on earth is entitled anything from anyone, but there are those few individuals like me that are truly deserving of a little compensation for all the hard work we have put in throughout the years. I get so upset that the only people others ever feel like are deserving of a reward are the people who are dying of cancer or some other terminal disease. I am not saying they aren't a candidate for a great charity cause, but they aren't the only ones. People who have had to endure many trials and have overcome them through effort and self-sacrifice, these too are so worthy of being rewarded with exotic vacations and paid in full homes. 

     So, with that introduction, I have never really been a recipient of a large reward of that magnitude, until just recently I received a phone call informing me that the Lord touched someone's heart and they are willing to sponsor by Invisalign treatment in full. It is an approximate cost of almost $5,000.00 and that is something I cannot afford even if I worked three jobs. I always thought something like this could happen to me, but I never actually believed it would actually come to pass. My smile is nice, but it definitely could enhance by doing this straightening. I am beyond excited to start the process, because I know it will last a few months plus I am ready for a new and improved smile. I give God all the glory for this blessing that is given on to me by such a courteous person. 

    I hope one day I can pay it forward to so many others in need, and that they aren't dying or expecting a handout. I want to reward those that have earned it through their work ethic and diligence to move forward in life through obstacles. So many times, people just need that fishing pole to catch their own fish if people were willing to provide it and teach them how to fish as well. We live in a self-absorbed world where people only think about themselves and can't spare not even a few minutes to help their neighbor. Kindness comes in the form of many ways, but there is always a way to show someone you care in the smallest of ways. Step outside of your bubble and do something nice for someone else without expecting something in return. 

    This blog was nice and short for your convenience, and I hope to continue sharing things in my life that motivate you to keep pursuing a life with God given purpose. If you haven't already seen the new book release my pastor Lorenzo Magwood published recently make sure you also stop by his page and check it out!! 

      So, with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan, and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!   

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

Crowning Moment #Amilikey

 

    Greetings my beloved followers!!! I know I never keep my blogging consistence, but I assure you that I have been working hard behind the scenes to walk the talk. I encourage people on here all the time, and what hypocrite would I be if I did not put my own words into practice. 

    So last week officially on April 15th, 2026, at around 11:30AM I passed my driving road test I had been neglected from being able to take because there was a mysterious error in the system, and none of the two driving schools I went to could pull me up. After countless times of contacting the DMV and administration via emails and phone calls; their own resolution was to attend the road test in person at the DMV. The whole point of going through the driving schools was because I did not have a vehicle to take to the DMV for test taking. Nonetheless, I shifted my focus on finding a school that provided the lessons, but also allowed for borrowing their own vehicle at the DMV. After several searches, I thank God Ravie's school came up and he made the process easy and ensured we practiced right before the test enough times to feel confident I had it down. 

    I have dreamed that this day would come for years and years. I hated having to admit to fellow coworkers and other people in general that I did not know or had a valid driver's license. It was such an awful embarrassing discussion each and every time. Having to explain why something so common was not already a part of my trajectory; it made me feel so insignificant and like I was not a real adult. People constantly accusing me of being afraid to drive or assuming I was incompetent because I wasn't already driving. It was so infuriating to have to deal with that on a daily basis, and knowing so many people crossed my path with the time and resources and never pitched in to help me get to this point. 

    As an adult, I am fully aware we are now all responsible for ourselves and not even our "family" has the obligation to assist us in life with reaching goals big or small. However, if people actually cared about me like they constantly claim that they do, they could have reached out and helped me learn to drive without me having through go through this dreading process of being ripped off hundreds of dollars through driving schools to be able to get my license. Nonetheless, I never gave up on meeting that goal that was a million bricks over my shoulders. 

    Now, that the road is literally open for business in my favor, I am praying the Lord will provide me soon that nice used vehicle that is safe for me to drive 24/7. I know I am literally just a baby driver with zero experience other than the lessons I paid for and the weekends my stepdad has let me practice with him around the neighborhood. But I promise to always drive safely not because I fear a speeding ticket or ticket in general, but I truly cherish the privilege to being a licensed driver. When something takes this much time and effort to accomplish, you take care of it like a fine porcelain because attaining it was not easy in the least bit. I still look forward to the other crowning moments when I drive through a drive-thru and order something. The moment I drive alone will also be so surreal and I cannot wait for all those moments to come to pass as well. 

    I am forever grateful I can finally put this burden behind me and whenever anyone asks I can say, I don't have a car yet, but I do have my license. One more notch on the belt of lifetime progress that make me really happy and proud of all my hard work. A lot of people still look at it like, wow you just now finally got it - unbelievable! The only reason my journey to driving has been so prolonged was because I had the wrong mindset on how things work. I thought that unless I had a job to support a car there was no point in getting a license if I could not afford a car. Little did I know that without a car becoming employed is so much more strenuous to get in the first place. I could have always worked with a company that provided the cars had I at least had my driver's license. But all that erroneous thinking just caused my delay amongst other factors in my life. 

    Again, I am over the moon, to finally start a new chapter in my life of being a driver and having that freedom to transport myself from point A to B without the need for a shared ride or walking or the bus. When I purchase my car or someone amazing gifts me one, I will pinch myself as a momentous way to celebrate it! Thank you for those that support my blogging and hopefully I can continue to bring you wonderful new news in my journey to overcoming my life's obstacles. Thank you for your time and cooperation. So, with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan, and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

March Madness #Amilikey

 

    Hey my beloved followers!!! So I am officially half of 72!!! I know it sounds crazy but it is true. I do not like college basketball, but I thought it was very clever to call this blog March Madness. March has started with a little hurdle I had to overcome coming down with a bad cold. I went to work almost all week with a stuffy nose and a cough, and had to bail on the last day because my asthma flared up. I wanted to crawl under a rock when I started coughing uncontrollably and the phlegm wanted to come out. I wish that upon no one, because it is so embarrassing and awful to make that scene in front of all those people. Anyways, I guess it's part of being human and enduring all that life brings the good and the bad.   

    I have scheduled my driving lesson for the end of the month, to get that process finally started and finalized. I am so sick of people looking at me like I am disabled or stupid for not having a driver's license at my age. As if that was an unbearable attribute to have or be in as an adult; although I never wanted to prolong this process for this many years. I know I should have prioritize this when the time was right, but I kept waiting for an employer to give me the opportunity for employment and that itself took an eternity. So, I will successfully get back on track and make this my final driving school. 

     I also have to train for my 5k like a mad woman because this month is all the time I have left to train and that really puts me in a time constraint. I want to improve from last year, and that is always the main goal each year. Coming in April I also booked more appts for my family and me with dental work. I like to keep myself busy and I just don't want to burn myself out. So this is my "march madness" schedule coming up in the next few weeks. I am happy again to have an employment I can do successfully without that burden I previously had at my old job. My patients are nice and friendly and I am happy to be able to make a living doing something I like and I am good at. Respectfully, I am still learning and I am getting better and better each day! Last Saturday, I was able to come in for that bonus shift and I loved it. 

    Still single like a lonely pringle. Major Lol. I know people don't expect much from me in terms of updating my status, but I'd figure I'd ease the wondering eyes. Anyways I hope your year is starting out right and you are working on your goals to better yourself and your future. Thank you for your time and cooperation. So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

Welcome to February #Amilikey

 

    Hello my beautiful people I just want to say that I am forever grateful to this new year, because it has started out so freaking great!! Like I have no other way to express my gratitude than with a big shout out Hip Hip Hooray!!! Major Lol. Okay, seriously I want to genuinely thank everyone who is constantly supporting my vision and platform on social media. I have been astonished at the progress in just a few days that my YouTube channel has gained so many new subscribers. I just started making short reels and didn't think much of it. All of a sudden, the views started pouring in like a lot (well at least to me reaching over 100 and even a 1,000 views is a big deal) with likes and comments too. 

    As most of you know by now this month is one of the most important months because it is so special to me. I get to celebrate another year of life and that is a huge accomplishment for me and a blessing. I always like to create a mini itinerary for the celebration, because I usually have a few days off of work; however, this year I am starting a new accrual of PTO and I won't be able to request any time off for my birthday! So I will be proactive and celebrate on the Saturday before my official birthday. I have a fun day planned for me, a way of telling myself how much I love you and appreciate you. I know as an adult I have zero expectations of getting any presents from anyone, because I barely get a card or notification congratulating me anyways. With that in mind, I make sure I gift myself the most I can and make the memory last with a beautiful cake/dress picture. 

    Apart from my wonderful birthday celebration, I want to encourage you to celebrate February with some volunteer hours to help society and spread the human love we all have to give. I know I haven't been able to get myself involved in volunteering lately, but it is a passion of mine and I hope once I am more accustomed to my new schedule I can put that in place too! Another great option is obviously the state fair in Florida and the upcoming strawberry festival in Plant City. It is also bitter sweet to realize my 36th birthday will yet again be without a husband or kids of my own. I do not know what hurts more: the constant questioning from strangers as to why I am not married yet or have kids or my own disappoint that the waiting season has yet to end. I do have faith that the Lord has a man separate only for me, but that the timing is just not right for both parties. It scares me with my biological timer over expiring and that is a real concern, plus I don't want to be an old mom which at this point it's already starting that way. 

    Thank you for following and reading my humble blog, I genuinely pray that whoever comes across this writing is blessed abundantly and any strongholds are broken in the name of Jesus Christ Amen!!!  So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

January Shoutout #amilikey

     

    

    I am beyond blessed to be able to share my journey on this platform for free. I once tried switching over the blog to another form oh WordPress, but they actually charge you a small fee for the nicer features and whatnot. Anyways, the beginning of this year has started out amazingly with the start of my new job back in the industry of my liking and aptitude. I am learning more than ever before and it is a wonderful feeling. At work we use the Microsoft Teams application to keep in touch with all of our staff throughout the day and I can't get enough every time I hear the notification ding that there is a new message in a different group chat. Being able to assist patient all day long without being uncomfortable or exhausted is also fantastic. We truly have a great team that works well together. 

    I am working on my personal goals and this Saturday was my first reengagement in that specific goal. In the beginning it was a bit nerve racking, but once I started I eased into it just like before and I did pretty good. Now, I can continue to work on that goal each and every Saturday morning to continue making progress. A lot of the times we are the ones who get in the way of making progress because it is not laid out how we would have preferred. Instead of relying on excuses because it is not all perfect, let us work with what we got and make the best of it. 

    The weather has not been suitable for outdoor running, but I can't wait to get back on the schedule for my 5k training. I even took the liberty of inviting all my coworkers and hope this time I won't be there by myself like usual. Also, I made a few short videos on YouTube just because I was feeling great and looked nice too. Somehow that sparked a mini trend and the videos have over 900 views each, this mini sensation gained me 15 new YouTube subscribers which I am so grateful for as my presence on social media continues to expand. My only goal for my platform is to share the gospel and motivate people to overcome their struggles through the love of Christ Jesus. 

  Thank you for all your support and as always my favorite phrase coming up: "You are not a mistake, because God is perfect and He cannot make mistakes." You have a purpose in life to fulfill, so no matter the hard times never give up and allow Jesus to show you the way to a genuinely happy life!

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

 

First Day of New Job! #amilikey

 

Hey beautiful bloggers of mine! I am over the moon and back. Major Lol. It is literally night and day difference in every aspect. I got up before the rooster crows and got my self ready for an early morning. I thank God I made it in with ample time and that is a great feeling of satisfaction punctuality. My new boss is the sweetest and no I am not kissing bootie. She genuinely has a character of kindness not found often in the workforce. 

    I was able to settle in with my login accounts and started my training modules with all the pertinent new hire information. There was enough time to shadow the coworkers upfront, so that was nice to see the work being done first hand. Right along came my one hour lunch, which was really nice considering I only got a 30 minute lunch during the whole 12 hour shifts with a 15 minute break but still makes a difference resting continually 60 minutes versus 30. 

    Since I had extra time, I went ahead and read through my work email-- found the code for my uniform voucher and made the order request. The early bird gets the worm and now I am looking at Wednesday for the shipment to arrive. Being able to wear the uniform and look the part is also very important to me and it makes me feel happy/official. Not to sugarcoat it, but the coworkers were all nice and amicable towards me. The entire atmosphere is so much more structured and comfortable to work in versus the discord and constant chaos at the hospital because that is the natural expectation. 

    The last three hours were completed on Teams with a trainer and having that visual virtual training with someone else was very beneficial. It made the learning process so much more vivid versus just shadowing everything with someone else while they are trying to work at the regular speed. Today was a wonderful beginning to a new journey in my medical field and for that I am just super grateful to the Lord for this new opportunity. 

   So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

Recap 2025 #Amilikey

 

    Good Afternoon my beloved bloggers!!! I just wanted to come on here and give you a recap of this year's ups and downs. I started this year in January with such high hopes of endeavoring into nursing by completing my prerequisites. I only lasted one semester and had to withdrawal from the summer term. I was so upset that I had yet again invested money that I didn't have to spend and time on something that did not come to pass. I really wish that I had done the right thing and prayed on it truly and waited for God to lead me to the right decision. Instead, all I did was be lead by my necessity to make more money and pursue a dream I thought I wanted for myself. It is always easier to critique the things that already happened after the fact. I could have invested that hard earned money on my wheels project and have been successful in that, but I just wanted to prove that I could use my waiting time more effectively and being able to tell people I was back in school felt nice. 

    In April, I started the desired PCT work that I also had been working on for over a year. I started off very excited about it and very nervous the first couple of shift that I did it solo. But afterwards the nervous feeling faded away quickly and turned into a dismal disillusion. The actual work of a patient care tech turned out to be more than I had bargained for in every aspect. Management demanded way too much for little compensation and no recognition of all the hard work I was delivering each and every shift. Being on my feet for over 12 hours was physically exhausting and the next day I woke up like I had been on a sport tournament or marathon because that's how tired I felt afterwards. I finally came to the conclusion that I was just wasting my time and energy where I am not necessarily needed and I am not making the extra money I was hoping for anyways. 

    After only a month and a half, I began the employment search for a better opportunity back in the clerical space I knew and exceled in. I searched and applied for several positions and finally in December the Lord answered my prayers and I was offered a new position with a totally different employer. I accepted right away and I am more than thrilled to be joining the office clinical space I thrive in yet again. It feels amazing to be reverting back to daylight hours and no full weekend work. To be able to lay my head down at night time every night is a true blessing, because sacrificing your sleep for work is not fun at all. No more being uncomfortable with people's sauna heating room temperature; no more having to beg people to let me do my work; no more inquisition about my personal life; no more working with people who do not want to work but bark orders, and it is just a wonderful journey back to a nice environment. 

    A lot of people criticize my decision by assuming I am not strong enough to endure the hardships the hospital environment entails, but that is so not true at all. I am leaving because I value myself and my work ethic; I deserve better and I am seeking better for myself. It doesn't mean I don't have the mental fortitude to do the work, because clearly I've been doing it for over 7 months now. Nobody had any idea of how much stress it caused me at work because I know how to perform under stress and keep my inner feelings to myself. The very colleagues that accuse me of not being fit for the job because I am leaving it behind, had no clue of how dissatisfied I was because I still did a great job and treated patients with kindness. I always had it clear in my mind, that the patients were not the ones to blame for the broken system and I always did my best to service them with love. 

    All in all, it was a very difficult year for me personally in my workforce sector; however, I know from this experience I gained much valuable lesson on how to proceed with caution. I learned that just because something is good and noble doesn't mean it is meant for your doing. From this experience that was so painful both physically and emotionally, I gained a deeper understanding of what it means to be in healthcare especially in a one to one hands on setting. The people I met I take along with me the good things I learned from them and I know even though it wasn't the outcome I would have liked, it still serves a purpose for my overall purpose in life. 

     So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

My Dream Job #Amilikey

 

    Hi my beloved viewers across the globe!!! So, while I am in this process of seeking a new and better opportunity for myself - I thought it would be therapeutic to do some fun daydream writing. I mean who doesn't love dreaming of things we wish we could have and experience right? It's a way of thinking positively and motivating yourself to believe there's more for you. I probably have too much time to daydream, but it is a relatively healthy outlet sometimes and it's better than pouting. 

    I wish my record in the workforce was more alluring and highlighted greater achievement, but for now I am still at an entry level with mild experience in the clerical field of medicine. I utilized google to better outline my dream job to fit the monetary compensation that would yield the necessary income for a 7 bedroom house valuing at $800k. According to today's market, I would require an annual income of $200k to $260k to pay the monthly mortgage of $800k house. In my naive mind, considering how much I've actually earned annually in the past: I have always viewed earning at least $100,000 a year to be a really comfortable earning compared to my $40k which really is only $34k after $6000 goes to taxes. 

    The best working conditions for me would have to be working the least amount of hours for the greatest price point. Again, future prospective employers who might come across my blog, this is strictly my daydream job, so do not be discouraged from reaching out with a realistic job offer for me. Now, with that clarification, in my pretend job offer - I would only work 3 days a week and be off for an amazing 4 days. I would work only Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday from 7AM to 3PM with a paid lunch at $100.00 an hour. I would like to have a spending fee of ordering food on the companies account of $50 (considering how much they always overcharge for taxes and delivery fees). 

    Now, the hardest part of this imaginative job is the actual classification of what role I would be executing for $100 an hour. I definitely would want my own private office that was large enough to fit one of those large office desk, a love sofa, a large copier machine, a beautiful bookshelf, and some light fake plant decor. Perhaps, a title around executive assistant or mid-level assistant of some clerical medical company I could be a part of for the $100k salary after taxes. I am not exactly sure if I would need my own personal office assistant or secretary, but it would be nice to be able to nicely boss someone around and give orders. Managers should be great leaders, and after the several ones I have experienced I know I'd make a wonderful boss because I know how not to mistreat them. 

    As a boss, I would not micromanage people's personal style of getting the job done so long as it was legal and ethical. I would give clear instruction once and allow them to work it out without constantly monitoring their progress. If you believe someone is good enough to do their job, let them show you and have confidence in their ability to succeed without you interfering. 

        Now, back to the part of making enough to afford a seven bedroom house, I would rely on my husband to make the remaining $160k and between both of our incomes afford a house big enough for 4 kids, a guest room, and my home office. Again, these are all aspirations of a dream, but honestly at this point I would just like to guarantee that I will be able to live in an actual house for the rest of my days again, because apartments suck for more than two person family. Recently, some IG follower butted into my comment on a page I follow, and they could not reason with my logic that men are suppose to be the providers of a household. Even if a woman is a successful career woman, I don't think a real man could really be content knowing he doesn't financially support his wife and kids. A woman can make more than her husband, but he has to be able to contribute at least 40% of the household income. I know I don't want to be a stay-at-home mom, but I would also not be okay with just being the sole breadwinner in the family. I just googled some examples and even though they are celebrities, it proves my point that a husband who makes far much less than his wife will never be content and they end up in divorce amongst other things. 

    I got sidetracked, but back to the "dream job" - I would definitely more than anything would want to contribute as much as I could financially so that I could enjoy a life of comfort without my current needs for myself or a future family. People seek to be rich, but all I want is to live comfortably where there is no budget on things I'd like to buy or experience. I am not saying I want to buy ridiculous things like a private jet or an island. I just want a nice car that is new and of my liking but isn't worth the amount of a mansion. A safari trip to Africa is an experience many people go into debt for or save years to have, but I'd like to just afford it without either sacrifice. Alright, enough pretend talk and let me get some much needed rest to face the real ugly music I don't like in a few hours yet again. But lastly, above an incredible job offer relatively close to this one, I still yearn to be an entrepreneur that doesn't just sell a great product, but has a successful line of service companies where I can hire thousands of people and give them all the perks I would want in a job no matter how simple the job may be (like providing all their uniforms, meals, fair actual livable pay, and complete medical coverage without discounting it from their actual pay). 

         So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

Game 7 #amilikey

     

    

    I have always enjoyed sports because it is fun to root for someone and the excitement that a team or player will win. Right now as I currently type out this blog I am watching the world series game 7 with LA Dodgers vs Toronto Blue Jays. I am personally not the biggest baseball fan, but when it comes to championship series then I get excited to view. The LA Dodgers are the team I am rooting for right now. The game is currently tied 4-4, but it is a nail biter for sure. 

    Regardless of who actually wins, it was a fun game to watch for entertainment purposes. Obviously, I hope the team I selected will rise to the occasion and crown their victory with a back to back win. I also want to encourage you to take a minute to view my all time amazing 90 subscribers YouTube channel, yeah it needs more subscribers so go ahead and check it out. All you have to do is click here and enjoy the views. Other than be using the hype of the game to promo my blog and sharing my YouTube channel, I got nothing else for you beloved people.  So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxo,

Ana :)

October Lies #amilikey

 

        Hi micro world of viewers, I find it a bit funny and ironic just to see the contrast between when I had all this blogging fever when I had no WiFi/laptop versus now that I have both. I barely blog nowadays even when I have ample time, because it's always discouraging to have such micro views that amount to basically zero return in monetary compensation, and the zero interaction from viewers not even to say, "hey you suck at writing and I hate your writing." Obviously, that is negative feedback, but at this point at least I knew someone actually read it even if they don't like it. Anyways, I will never be able to claim that I am a successful writer/author but life goes on. 

        Now that I got that off my mind, I can elaborate on the October lies that lie ahead. Major Lol. Okay, so this month the devil takes advantage of so many people all because they want to have "fun" and it appears to be so innocent with cute costumes and candy. Why would letting the children play dress up and get a candy be demonic and absolutely evil? Well it is and the fact that witches and practicing satanic followers explicitly tell you they perform satanic rituals on this day -- should be more than enough to NOT participate. People will always make excuses to satisfy their flesh, but to involve the innocence of children is just despicable in everyway. Everything about Halloween is diabolical starting from it's origin and it's current practice from people doing evil. 

        It is so sad to see the liberal church of today masking this satanic event with the imitation of turning their car trunks as the doors of their houses and still passing out the exact same thing as all the other worldly people - candy. So how is this not the exact same thing as celebrating Halloween? You are partaking of the same demonic spiritual realm just as if you stayed home or went from house to house collecting candy. Christians should use this awful time of the year to speak out against it and about it so others will be set free from this darkness that is upon them. People still believe it's just religious propaganda to control people, but I am willing to boldly say that the majority of the tragedies that have struck innocent kids are a direct result from participating in this satanic event. If I could do a cross reference to all the kids that go missing because they are kidnapped, I am sure at one point in their lifetime they celebrated Halloween and now this tragedy struck them as a direct result of the covenant their parents allowed the devil to over take their kids. Unbelievers think that because the kids are not stricken right then and there that no effects come from it, but I know that terrible things happen to whoever partakes of evil even if the devil prolongs the side effects. 

        Please stop celebrating and participating in Halloween and spare the souls of your children and yourselves. Do your research and learn about the truth and stop believing the lies of Satan that it's just a "fun" time for kids to enjoy their childhood. Listen to the powerful testimonies of people who practice and came out of practicing this demonic ritual, because they are telling you how horrifying it is and the serious consequences it has if you partake. I pray deliverance to all those children that are lured to celebrate because they want some candy. I cancel all the plans of the enemy in Jesus name and I cast down all the demonic activity in the mighty name of Jesus!!!! Ghost are not ghost, they are demons and people have changed their names to make them seem less surreal or significant. I never thought of it that way, but it makes perfect sense how psychic are able to tell people accurate information about their personal lives. It is the demons that have been watching people since they were infants that obviously know their whole lifetime and whisper the correct information into the ears of psychics. People are so gullible when they hear the truth about their past, they automatically then give credit over to the psychic about their future which only the Lord has access to and power over. 

        I uproot every evil seed that was every sown onto my life because my own parents allowed me to partake in this evil while they were unbelievers or weak in the faith. I renounce to any event I partook without true intention and I decree that me and my family shall serve the Lord Jesus alone!!!  So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

Pre-Fall Updates #amilikey

 

    Hola mi gente querida!!! Hi my beloved people!! So I've been going back and forth about this personal update, but I feel like coming clean about it will also help in my own healing. I do admit I tend to overshare and talk too much about things I later have to take back. I am clearly still a working progress towards full maturity even though I am half of seventy, which begs to differ I shouldn't have much maturing to do. Unfortunately, I still don't have it altogether and it is super frustrating/debilitating/aggravating all in one. 

    Without further intro, after about four and half months of actively performing my new duties, I couldn't be more sure that the path I once saw as crystal clear isn't at all. My expectations of how things would unfold haven't come true at all and some variables I was aware of I didn't take into full consideration. I thought that by attaining this new certification and becoming a CNA, I would be: one- making more money (as I am literally doing more work than before especially physically), two - have the satisfaction that my work made a difference and I'd be genuinely happy doing it, and lastly - it would encourage the future path to nursing. None of those points have come true for me at least. The monetary discrepancy is a true injustice because despite not having the extensive years of experience, I am still doing the exact same work as those with experience and so for that reason alone I do deserve a raise to acknowledge my transition in employment. Of course people in leadership always just shift the inquiry to and from parties and never resolve anything in favor of the people doing the hard work. 

        I constantly saw basically all the techs complaining on how much they hated doing their work, but my naive and dumb good sentiment persona always drew the conclusion that these people only hated it because they had no patient advocacy or true human empathy. I never truly realized that the ratio is disproportionate to being able to provide actual quality care. Your daily assignment is always full of heavy medical needs patients and the routine is laid out to where there is hardly any time to recover from being on your feet and physically doing work. If you are lucky, you might get one or two helping RNs that actually assist you in doing the work other than giving orders. The overall expectation that your tasks are your responsibility alone and even if you are actively taking care of a patient, it doesn't matter if other tasks are completed late as long as you get them done yourself. 

    Most people would just draw the assumption that it is the particular specialty of the unit I work on or the few apples that make work harder than it should be. I realized that none of that really makes the overall experience as a care taker any less arduous. The institutions structure is setup for a tech to always feel overwhelmed no matter what unit they work on, and the variety of patients is complex but always very hefty in one way or another. I personally hold hygiene as a basic standard, and to have to convince someone to allow me to help them get clean is super demoralizing to say the least. Elderly people have the right to refuse treatment, but denying hygiene is just so discomforting to have to deal with in both the unpleasant physical aspect and also having to do so much to help out. I never accounted that I would be constantly sweaty from going in and out of rooms whose temperature is just not within reason to my liking. 

    Finally, the aspect that is most discomforting that I thought I could overcome, is the constant life criticism from patients that are alert and oriented. I love sharing my personal story of survival, but to have to answer to strangers why I am just a measly tech is absolutely infuriating. I know for the rest of my life I will be judged, and everyone gets judged because it's our human nature to pass judgement. However, I would prefer you keep that judgement internally and not question me for my current status of labor. They just assume that I am unintelligent and I of course never even made it to a real university, because this job doesn't require such high level of education. If they even have any respect for my abilities, they ask if I will pursue nursing afterwards or currently; which is now a definite "No, thank you!!!" The physical strain on my body from just being on my feet for a twelve hour shift has been very enlightening, and add to that doing even more work than just standing. 

    I have also experience the ugly verbal abuse from patients that are mentally unstable; which I know every medical healthcare professional has experienced before (especially in a hospital setting). I don't want to be exposed to such harsh verbal abuse even if it is just a medical mental illness of being disoriented. I don't need to hear it or want to either; not to mention the physical things I've been exposed to that I also don't want to see at all. I thought I'd never be "cat-called" to put it lightly by men that are obviously ill, but it has also happened a few times and it is super aggravating even if they're just throwing me a mercy flirt. Even as a nurse, none of these aspects would change, and I see them constantly struggling with the overwhelming overload of heavy needs patients. I like helping people, but the corporate and patient abuse towards the medical staff is not one I want to partake for in the long-run in a hospital setting. 

    I hate that out of desperation to feel like I was making progress, I enrolled in prerequisites for nursing and endured a whole semester of wasted time and money that I barely have to be spending so carelessly. I had to withdraw from the summer term and loose the entire summer tuition because I withdrew before the reimbursement deadline still thinking I could push through working full-time and being a student. I literally was falling asleep on my first exam I had to take after getting home from work and of course I failed because I was half asleep and didn't schedule enough time to study. I solute everyone who gets through a full-time job and schooling because it is the hardest thing in life. I barely made it through one semester of it and it was super debilitating. 

    In conclusion, I really wish I would have used discernment to ask God if investing my time and money on this CNA and prerequisites was the right step forward. I hate to admit I was wrong about both, but here I am admitting it was the wrong decision and investment. It only brought about clarity of what I don't want to pursue and endure for the rest of my life. As much as I like helping people, looking at gnarly wounds, and trying to encourage others through shared medical experience - I will retrieve back to an administrative position where I excel most and feel most comfortable. I know I care for these patients to the best of my ability, and even if I am a bit slow I do it with love. However, I do deserve better and I am capable of much more than manual labor which is what being a tech is really all about. People will always flinch and get that startled look when they see me, but from a clerical position, it doesn't give them much time to ask me so many personal questions and the interaction is set to a one or two time short limit. I gained a new admiration and appreciation for nurses I will never forget, but I won't pursue being miserable for a few days just to have more days off to recover from the mental/physical strain of the career. 

    I dislike greatly that I still don't know my actual calling in life even though I have been asking God for many years. It seems like everything I have pursued in the past I have just been good at but never like superb. People say just follow your passion or utilize your gifts; but what exactly are my gifts? I thought I was a great speaker/talker, but no one ever remotely considers me for a presentation. I have gotten that awful dry mouth, shaking hands whenever I have spoken here and there, so clearly I am not that great at it. I thought perhaps my writing could make the difference, but here we are eight plus years into my blogging and I have gained a pathetic $2.15 in ads commission. Which honestly is the equivalent of zero because until I make it to one hundred dollars I can't even claim it. No one hardly ever reads my blogs other than to maybe be nosey, and I know there are a lot of grammatical errors and fragmented sentences. Run on sentences and just not the high quality writing a publisher might be seeking, so it might seem weird - but I cannot with confidence say I know what I excel at in the form of a talent/gift. Despite the unknown, I will continue to live life for Christ and hope my questions are answered. So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

Running 101 #amilikey

 

    Hi readers of the world!! I consider myself an amateur runner even though I have been doing it relatively consistent for over 4 years now. I have participated in just a few races from 5K to 5 miles. Obviously, never medaled any prices but definitely finished the races and not the last one. Major Lol. It all began with a former personal trainer I had who inspired and motivated me to start running with just one mile during my lunch break.

    

     At the time, I had a guaranteed hour break for lunch so it made it feasible to complete and the location was absolutely perfect. My very first run took me a little over 13 minutes just to complete one mile in the middle of the day in pure hot weather. I believe I did that for a whole week and by the 7th day I had the time down to about 10 minutes. After that initial week of one mile, he challenged me to do two miles and I was like, it seems too soon to jump from one to two miles but I did it anyways. I was able to complete my two miles each morning before work in about 26 to 28 minutes. Eventually I don't exactly recall when I started my pursuit of an actual 5K which is 3.1 miles, but the first 5K training lasted 48 minutes if my memory serves me well, and I thought I was never going to make it. 

    As the time passed by, I kept at it and eventually got my 5K down to 38 minutes for my very first official virtual race. My latest 5K time came down to 36 minutes and 36 seconds this past April in 2025. Honestly, had I prepped better with more sleep and rested a day or two before the race without working I would have perhaps made it to 35 minutes, so that was quite a bummer. Now, that is just an overall summary of how I got started into running and how it has progressed over the years. I still have so much more improvement to make and many races to participate in down the road. What I really wanted to discuss is the ins and outs of the whole exercise from my perspective. 

    First of all, running is not easy, and the most difficult part is not the physical aspect but the mental fortitude you have to exert each and every time you go for a run. Even after several years of amateur running, after the first mile I am already tired and my body wants to say "okay, that is enough you can stop now". Now, this is where the real runner in my point of view is made, because she/he will push past this natural instinct to want to stop and keep running. I often get discouraged when I can't really improve my timing, but I always tell myself, "you can at least finish the 5K mileage and work on the endurance". 

    Next, running is not cheap at all, people think it doesn't take much to actively participate in running, but the reality is that this activity requires a financial investment. You need a great pair of running shoes, which are not going to be under $50 dollars tops; you need several running outfits because otherwise you'll be doing laundry a lot more often; nutrition wise you literally have to invest in healthy food and supplement items to replenish the sweat -- so taking in electrolytes in drinks or snacks; when you actually want to test out your training in a real race -- you have to pay to be in the race and it all racks up. So, be mindful that even if you never run in a real race with other participants, you will spend money to be able to run even on your own. 

    Also, the actual running-world of people that partake of this physical activity are usually for the most part semi-athletes and they are like the popular social group. They are not welcoming to outsiders who don't look like them physically in a fit body, or at least no one in any of the races I've participated has ever genuinely welcomed me to the social running group. I always get the "what the heck is she doing here with those burnt legs?" No one has ever verbally said it out loud in that same manner, but if looks could kill, well I'd definitely wouldn't be here for sure. They all question my physical ability to run, but beyond that it's also like they don't feel comfortable having me as part of the runners because it looks so disturbing to their perfect fit physique. I know am not the fastest runner nor will I ever be or win anything, but running makes me happy and I do enjoy it a lot. So, beware that the social aspect of running is also very tailored to this concept of aesthetics, and affluent upper social class that doesn't accommodate to outsiders. (Another mental fortitude you have to be prepared to endure) 

    Finally, although the causes for races are always noble and raising awareness for several issues is important, I believe there is a large gap that forgets about those wishing they could partake and these people are being robbed of a great opportunity to enjoy running at a larger scale like being in a race. In other words, all these races have a price point, from my recollection there aren't any free races because the whole point of these events is to raise money for a cause. I know that there are races with a minimum participation fee, but even with such a low price point -- some people in low income housing can't afford it or afford to be involved. I get that it takes money to sponsor a race, I also know that if more people invested in the happiness of those less privileged then we would have a better society. People throw away their money adopting pets (I believe animals can fend for themselves and domestication has ruined natures natural course, but that's beside my point) why not adopt an amateur runner and sponsor them to be able to run. 

    Alright, that is as much insider perspective as I can add to this topic and I hope it brings about some enlightenment to those curious about running. I hope I didn't discourage you from becoming a runner, but I hope it does help you better mentally prepare to what you will encounter overall. On that note, I will not be running in this year's Bolt Run downtown by Amalie Arena, for several reasons I have personally but mainly the amount of work it takes to prepare for 5 miles is serious work and given my current line of work I barely have energy to run at all on my in between days off. I commend all those who work 12 hour shifts on their feet all the time, because it is physically exhausting not to mention the other physical labor intensive work that I do overall. So, running is fun overall, it will test you in many ways and require a lot of your time to actively stay in it.  So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,

Ana :)

     

Bandwagon #swifty #amilikey

 Greetings 🫡 y’all!!! 

It’s been a hot minute since I had the motivation to post. I sincerely appreciate the micro views, but at the same time it’s also discouraging to know the audience doesn’t interact with me at all. No one ever leaves a comment, not even to criticize my writing or my statements. I also know that the ending remark is what makes people walk away, but despite my bad record and tarnished testimony as a Christian - I do believe in Jesus Christ and know He is the one and only truth in life. 

Now, you might be thinking what this topic is all about and considering how many people on social media are jumping on this bandwagon of pop culture news, I’d figure I’d give my two cents as well and maybe use it for my advantage of getting a few more views. My total profit from ads since 2018 is a whopping $2.00 dollars. That is probably the worst increase in the history of blogging, but I am honest about what I share in my writing and that’s all I can stay true to. 

I consider Taylor Swift aesthetically the equivalent of a Barbie and no one can deny how beautiful she is physically. As far as her singing talent goes, she’s good but she’s not a vocal powerhouse and her lyrics aren’t impressing. She is only profitable because she’s pretty and her songs are just catchy. Now, her personal love life has been a train wreck from the beginning. A person who has had multiple partners is not showing you how amazing they’re because they’ve had so many. It is the exact opposite of what a healthy person would reflect. I honestly don’t believe her marriage if it actually happens will be successful, not because I’m wishing her downfall but because she’s not in a healthy position to commit for life. She hasn’t healed from all those past failed relationships and adding one more isn’t going to fix it. Obviously 🙄 she needs Jesus and so does he, but celebrities hardly ever make it last or work— I mean look at Jlo and how much she swore this time it was a dream come true. 

I’m not judging Swifty but that’s just how I see it from an outsider perspective. And I obviously pray she uses her skills and talents to spread the gospel when she repents and accepts the Lord Jesus as her Lord and Savior. If Daddy Yankee can turn his life around after 20 plus years of doing secular music that degrades women and relationships, then Taylor Swift can also be a part of a powerful transformation. If it’s the Lord’s will they truly be together then I pray they both come to Jesus sooner than later. Celebrities are still people in need of salvation and I as a believer often dismiss them entirely, but I do pray for them all. 

Now again, no one is perfect, but marriage is not a joke or a transaction you go into and out of it like swiping credit cards. Marriage, the only sacred covenant between a man and a woman, is a serious commitment and all people should take it seriously. Remember you are not a mistake because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes. You are here for a reason and a purpose, so allow Jesus to guide you in that path. Thanks for tuning in and hopefully someone gets something good out of this humble micro viewed blog!!! Till next time !!! For more great content #amilikey on all social media. 

Xoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :) 

Capitalism destruction on Medicine #amilikey

 

        Hey beloved bloggers of mine!!! I know my love for writing is always hindered with my lack of self-discipline with consistency. I enjoy viewing the screen time a little too much, and that has always been one of my biggest flaws. All those hours I've invested on watching TV and now streaming services could have been invested in learning, blogging, reading and getting closer to my Savior. 

    But I am not here to make excuses for myself, we all make choices and suffer the repercussions. So after many weeks of waiting to be transferred to a different position at work, it finally happened. I still couldn't believe it finally happened given the extensive eight month period, and constant change in date for the change. I went from being a PUC(patient unit coordinator) to now a PCT(patient care tech). I was fortunate to train with someone I admire in terms of her character as a person being loving and welcoming. My training wasn't extensive and it only lasted 6 days in two weeks. I was definitely a bit nervous on my first solo shift, but thankfully I pulled through without any major complications or errors in my part. Did I do everything perfectly? Of course not, and considering this new role is completely new to me in terms of actually being the caregiver instead of the patient, I believe I've risen to the occasion. 

      Since this is my platform where I speak freely, I know majority of my fellow coworkers doubted my ability to be a PCT and to not I guess freak out or get overwhelmed with the workload or "bad" patients. Everyone assumed I enjoyed sitting on my flat bootie all night just answering those beloved phones nonstop. They all take one look at me and see me as this weak petite woman, but they are all wrong because I am strong both mentally and physically. I don't say that to be cocky or arrogant, rather to demonstrate that what men sees as unworthy and useless the Lord enables to do above and exceedingly things in His name. I also admit, I have a lot more to learn and my skills aren't as well executed as the veterans that have been doing this for decades. I love patient care because I can relate to all my patients in one way or another, I know what it is like to be bed bound and to be in physical pain after surgery or in general. I am not afraid to ask for guidance if I need it or for clarity on something I might not quite understand. With all of that said, I am so grateful to be released from being a PUC. 

       To further expand on my the details, I genuinely thought the title implied actual coordinator work, and I didn't investigate the actual role before stepping into it. I wanted to have a role where I could have a more in-depth ability to contribute something more meaningful. Honestly, I hated having to harass people to do their work and they constantly taking it out on me for literally doing what I was paid to do. Now, I can be the one who goes and takes care of the patients need without making excuses and avoiding the work like other people did when I called them. All it takes is discernment and the willingness to take care of the patient to the best of your ability. The most important quality you can offer a patient is true compassion and empathy for whatever reason they have been hospitalized. 

       Furthermore, this was just the introduction to the theme of this blog about how corporate greed for profit has tarnished the quality of healthcare in medicine. I hate saying it, but unfortunately maybe 70 to 85 percent of the healthcare workers in all arenas are only working in healthcare for the money and not for the love of taking care of people. I have witnessed it over and over again in my line of work and in my previous work and as a patient myself. Healthcare workers like some nurses do the bare minimum to satisfy the employment status not to be fired, but they show no compassion and do everything with a grudging attitude/ aggressive. They also tend to be dismissive when the patient is rowdy or homeless/old. I know it is not easy to deal with difficult patients, but it doesn't help when the person taking care of them has no patients for them. There is always a better way to say things and offer a more approachable way of reaching people where they are at. 

       It is due to corporate greed that the algorithm that dictates the ratio of patient to healthcare worker is wrong. A nurse or a PCT, cannot provide the same quality of care if the numbers don't allow for ample time to service them with quality care. This is one the reasons why patients return after a discharge so quickly, because they were either discharged without proper thorough medical evaluation and consideration for their status. Everyone is usually stressed to get them in and out as fast as you can, so we can rack up more billing for insurance companies. And on the contrary, those who do not need to be hospitalized or held hostage in a way for any little potential loop in the system to milk the insurance coverage and letting the corporate industries get what they want most which is more profit. Then these same healthcare workers, who are chasing the money work overtime and are working tired because they are given the incentive to work for bonuses. The toxic cycle just continues as the workers who already have the wrong attitude towards patient care are then doing it with exhaustion, which leads to more medical errors and poor patient care. 

      The real solution to this crisis, is plain and simple with very attainable measures corporations should be implementing immediately across all healthcare industries that reach more than hospitals and clinics. Number one, offer healthcare workers a higher wage so that they do not need to work overtime to have a comfortable living. Of course there will always be those greedy people who are never satisfied and are workaholics, but the majority of sensible people would be relieved to know they can work a normal schedule and be compensated in a reasonable manner. Number two, lessen the workload when it comes to assigning patients and the work they perform, because quality of work in healthcare should be the top priority and not the quantity in terms of how much can just one individual do by themselves without passing out. A quick example, if a PCT had less patients to care for, they could ensure that every part of their care was done to the highest standards and patient satisfaction would always be perceived as actually satisfactory and not mediocre. And the same goes for a doctor reviewing patients and a housekeeper actually being thorough with their cleaning because they are not being pressured to complete a ridiculous amount of rooms in such little time. Quality work requires time, and if that time is not given then you will always have just an okay kind of result versus an excellent service. A perfect example in our everyday life, the fast food we eat will never be better than a homemade meal cooked from scratch or a fine dinning restaurant. Number three, for hospitals, lessen the time of inpatient stay if it really is not necessary and only admit people who truly need the services of inpatient care. 

     All of my generic solutions are feasible, but will the CEOs of the medical industries ever implement them to better the overall quality in medicine? Unfortunately, that is a hard sad NO, because increasing profit is their defining target and as long as they are reaping the six figure salaries, they could care less to what other bottom feeders doing all the work in these industries struggle with. I am not saying being a CEO is a walk in the park; however, they are not willing to take a pay cut to better distribute the funds where they are needed or make a change that would regulate the benefit across the board for everyone. People would work better if they weren't always burnt out and felt unappreciated. Overall health of the community would be better if people could actually enjoy a good quality of life and have a work balance. We shouldn't depend on people's sickness to earn a living in healthcare, instead we should be servicing preventative care and expanding services for wellness that people could be a part of as their main line of work. There is so much more in-depth discussion on how healthcare can truly be changed, but unfortunately this corrupt world only seeks out their own best interest for profitable gain. I know we can't save them all, but making the necessary changes would offer so many more people a better lifestyle if only people in leadership would care enough to change the current format. 

      All in all, I am just so appreciative of the ability to take part in patient care with the most basic level as a PCT and to be on the giving side of patient care considering how long I was the patient in need. I hope my dedication and true compassion for people will improve healthcare just a tiny little bit and patients go home knowing someone cared for them as a person. I know my journey has just begun and I shall remain humble through it all giving God all the glory for whatever I do right in this lifetime. So with all of that let me get back to my main goal of spreading encouragement and reminding myself and others you are not a mistake because God that created you is perfect and He cannot make mistakes. You are here for a plan and a purpose so allow Jesus into your life and discover that plan for your life to be fulfilled. Thank you and remember leaving a small comment or feedback is always welcomed!!

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)