Day Dreaming #amilikey

 

    One of my all time favorite activities to do is daydream. I know it's not exactly healthy because it heightens the expectations of what is real and what is not. I also resort to it as a coping mechanism to the current situations I may be dealing with in my life. I know that in due season what is meant for me  and my life will come to pass but it is hard at times to wait for them to come. 

    I wanted to discuss it because right now I have one or actually two events coming up. As an amateur runner I do participate in a few races throughout the year. In each and every event, I always have this hope that maybe just maybe I might meet someone new that will bring something new into my life. Obviously the first thing I think about is will my future partner perhaps be there and will this be the means by which our love story begins. I know how naïve and hopeful that sounds for something that is not at all guaranteed or probable for me. In the past races, no one has ever even spoken a single word to me, so why would a good-looking man ever approach me and be interested in getting to know me. Clearly, these events are all against me in terms of the social group aspect of being one of the chosen females to approach. Super athletic and pretty girls are out there showing off their perfect bubble butts and long legs; meanwhile I am just showing my scars and little kids size shoes. Also, not to be so critical but the majority of the men out there are either gay and total stuck-up jocks that care more about their appearance than anything else surrounding them. 

    I am excited because one of the events is specifically geared towards Latinos and I've never participated in a specific genre race before so that will be new and different for me. I hope at the very least that considering that these are my people we will have more things in common to bond over and perhaps I might actually make a pen pal. Hopefully I will experience some of that warmth I've been missing out on since I am no longer in Colombia and in large Latino gatherings. But back to the daydreaming part, I do create a whole scenario of who I might meet at these events and how they will be so fond of me and keep in touch. I imagine them falling in love with me and becoming my best friends (which I have none and I have been friendless for quite some time). To be even more honest that is why I talk so much when I am at work because I have no one to talk to in real life other than my immediate family (and even that is not enough because there are certain things they can't relate to me on). When I thought I had real friends, they often criticized my knowledge and never appreciated me for me. It was nice having someone to talk to but in retrospect, they never fulfilled that need I had to relate to someone going through my same hardships and experiences. More than anything I hope I get to see nice people and have a healthy good run in each of the events. 

    My last little two cents is I need to post more blogs because I am so far away from my 50 posts goal for this year. I only have I think it was 14 blogs posted this year and we are way past the mid-year mark; which means I am definitely so far behind. I have gotten better in terms of not overdoing the daydreaming, but it is like that bad habit you try to break and it is very enticing and addictive. It requires very little effort and I can daydream anywhere- mainly when I am by myself or in a quite environment. It also helps pass the time and it really gets me emotional to where I smile and like enter a zoned out face as if I was watching an actual movie. I pray the people that are meant to be in my life will arrive sooner than later, and I won't have to resort to daydreaming about having a social life anymore but I will actually get to live it out. 

    Alright, thank you for tuning in one more time to this humble blog. As always, " You are not a mistake, because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes." Make sure you like, share, subscribe, and leave a comment - even if it's to criticize my writing - anything at this point would be nice to be acknowledged for once!!!

Love, 

Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)

  

Bad Jefes #amilikey

 

Hello mi gente!!! So as I browse the LinkedIn page I read a lot of posts regarding what makes a good boss and everything to do with leadership. 

I’m thankful 🥹 I haven’t had too many bosses in my lifetime because I started my adventure in the workplace until I was 27. It hurts me to know I literally had to wait that long to be acknowledged as a potential and reliable employee. Now, with that in mind the only good thing is I never had to start working at a fast food restaurant or a retail store like 99% of the teenage population. 

Let me see I’ve had an estimate of 7 different bosses not including the labor pools which constantly rotated and obviously were a daily assignment. Out of those 7 primary bosses in part time and full time jobs only two were just 😫😫😫🙄🙄🙄🫤🫤🫤 bad. The first one ironically was my first bad encounter. She was younger than me at the time, and thought I couldn’t take orders because the age difference to which I specifically told her and I quote, “ If a two year old was in charge of the activity I would have no problem listening to them.” What made her a bad boss was her lack of trust in all her employees (3) to do as she asked with just one simple request. She had to monitor the progress every 5 minutes and she had to imply that there was only one way to get things done and that was her way. This bad boss literally had a written process for every little task like someone wasn’t coherent. The general concept of writing out step by step instructions in getting something done is not wrong, but when you have to step by step how to print labels and have a freaking checklist to do what was suppose to be a “small cleaning” —- damn that’s annoying!!!! 

She was a horrible boss, because she had incoherent expectations of what my tasks were as a “administrative assistant” (which was just a fancy title for office cleaning lady/making coffee, shred, copy, stamp, mail) and one day she actually got mad at me for now washing her damn coffee cup that she kept at her cubicle and not at the sink. So she really thought that after doing the daily cleaning and washing the dishes at the sink that I too would go around picking them up. I did text her once at the very beginning of me working there she was the best but it was a total lie and I totally kissed her butt. I didn’t know what to text back because that was another annoying thing that she constantly texted me asking me dumb questions and constant monitoring before she got to work, after she left, after I left and it was super aggravating. 

The straw that broke the camel’s back was actually the lack of respect they had for me there altogether. It was a small mom and pop small business, but they discriminated against me because I didn’t have my own MOT and never offered me full-time even though clearly I needed in order to get my MOT. MOT stands for mode of transportation it’s just a fancy way of saying my own car. Once they transferred to a new location, the original “small cleaning” turned into almost 2 hours every day plus a whole 4 hours on Wednesdays and I was feed up with the expectation that I had to complete the cleaning and the office tasks within a 5 to 6 hour shift. I worked for them for four consecutive months and what did I get in return from them: nothing. I was a professional already with a bachelors degree from a real university and they treated me like a coffee and donut cart vendor. They never cared to ask for my input on how to improve things and participate on the more meaningful aspects of the job. The only good thing that came of it was starting my resume timeline. 

The second horrible boss I had truly takes the cake. She number one did not deserve or earn her position at the clinic I was working. She only was placed there because she had a friend in the company who basically put her there. She never met the basic standards for healthcare in regards to being aware and prepared for being in healthcare. I had my medical office administration certificate when I applied and I also had experience working in healthcare as a volunteer and in general. This lady didn’t even know the difference between Medicaid and Medicare. She was a micromanaging freak to say the least. Literally every 5 to minutes she was giving dumb orders that were already implied. I thank the Lord I’m not blind and my peripheral vision is intact. Every time a patient was being discharged and approaches the front desk, I know that they need their discharge papers and I can hear the printer going off. And even then, she still had the audacity just to annoy me and give orders, “ Can you grab the papers off the printer and give them to the patient.” I am aware and you don’t have to say every single time. That is like telling me “make sure you close the door when you use the bathroom” — like it’s an obvious self explanatory thing that doesn’t need to be mentioned!!! 

I could not stand her way of approaching me with tasks and insinuating that the poor customer service rating were my fault. When clearly it was already a poor establishment lacking everything. She was so annoying with her loud mouth and random screams. Truth be told, if she hadn’t resigned to go back to her industry I was on the verge of quitting myself. She made being at work unbearable and frustrating. She acted like she knew so much about management because she had worked for over 20 years at a toy store as a manager. How in the world do you compare managing a toy store with something as delicate and complex as a medical health facility. As soon as she left, we all had a sense of relief and our scores were the highest they’ve ever been and it wasn’t because of her and what she did. I pray for the current employees under her management because I already know what they’re dealing with. No one is perfect, but certain people like her could really reevaluate her way of managing and constantly belittling people with her smart ass remarks. She always prioritize her needs and wants over anyone else: like making me come in for 3 stupid hours on a day I had already requested my 5 hours of PTO which technically hadn’t been updated just so she could go get her damn nails done. It was my family members surgery and had it not been schedule in the afternoon I definitely would have not made it in. She literally threatened me to write me up if I didn’t come in because allegedly I didn’t have enough hours to cover my whole shift. She did write me up two others times for bogus claims that I needed to improve customer service because one angry customer said something even though they never mentioned my name or described anything out of the ordinary. I truly deserve a price for enduring so much at that clinic for two years in a row. 

Anyways I just wanted to share my bad bosses and reiterate that the best kind of leadership is one where trust is given from the boss to his or her employees without questioning their capabilities to perform the job (because why hired them if you doubt they could do anything right). When you are a leader, you lead with example of being kind, prompt, and respectful to everyone’s situation. A leader is someone who aids others to be successful and not in competition to make them feel less than yourself. As always don’t forget “You are not a mistake because God is perfect and He does not make mistakes.” Thank you for reading come share, comment, like!!! 

Love, 

Xoxoxoxoxoxo, 

Ana :)